HERE COMES THE MONSTER

2012-01-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

Hello blog readers, long time no see!
As you know, I usually write blog posts when I'm stressed (usually during uni/exams), but tonight even though it's not stressful, I just feel like updating this long forgotten blog.
One week after the exams ended, I got a job! This job gotta be the best job I have ever had. Good people, good pay, good job, good gym-like workout on the job, good everything! Unfortunately (or fortunately?) I had the blessing of receiving another job, in which I learn more. I have told my manager of the good place that I am resigning. Starting 2 weeks frm now, I shall be employed only by one company! Phew! What a relief! From there, I'll have a proper holiday which is only one a half month long. Lollies!
Oh well, hope you all had a good Christmas and a happy new year! Enjoy these last few days of ur holidays before uni comes back!!

How to say?

2011-10-10T23:40:00.001+08:00

Have you ever been wanting to say something to someone very special for sooooo long already.. But you never could or never know how to? It's so frustrating sigh........ Just wanted to say at least a "Thank you".. but it's so hard!

Memories

2011-09-27T23:03:00.005+08:00

Beware: if you're searching for uplifting inspiration, this post is definitely not it.And I apologise firsthand for pouring these uncheerful posts. I just find that writing is one of the best ways for me to pour out my feelings. And what's a better way than to post to the somehow anonymous world wide web.

It's been 3 days now since I heard of the news. I've got a midsem on Friday but seriously just cannot study properly. Mum and bro's in indo. The house's so quiet. And I don't particularly wanna study alone during these times. So library is where I reside, but each day instead of studying properly my mind just end up blurring into the reasons on why and how it might have happened.

I also started to think about the past. How when me, my sis, and bro were younger, we used to visit my cousin's family. We'd be so happy cos it means that it would be lots of fun times. One fond memory was when we used to pretend we were Power Rangers. My sister and my cousin's sister, got to choose who they want to be first. My sister was the pink one (Kimberley) and my cousin's sister was the Yellow Power Ranger. My bro was the blue, and my cousin chose the Red one. Since I was the youngest, I was left to become the Black power ranger. I used to complain, but now I think about it, it's still pretty cool!

Another memory was when all 5 of us were watching some men playing billiard (pool). I was so young then and I was so captivated by the game, I didn't realise my sister, bro, and my 2 cousins left me alone and hid behind a bush. Apparently they saw a crazy woman coming near and they quickly hide, leaving me behind. Suddenly the crazy woman (I didn't know she was crazy) talked to me: "Aunty kiss you okay??" And she bent down and kissed me. Then all 4 of them laughed from behind the bushes. I was like: grrhhhhh u guys r so mean!!! Later on my uncle and aunty laughed after hearing the story and told me to wash my cheek.

Lots of other memories.. of those fun times.. Then we grew up, my family moved to Australia, so the last time I met him would be about 7 or 8 years ago. It's so sad that now we will never have a chance to meet him and catch up.

Today, me and my sister looked through some blogs and threads posted in memory of my cousin by his friends. There was this blog post from his med friend. Reading about it made me so proud, because the stuff that makes me respect him is not just in my mind, but that friend and lots others think the same way too. Tomorrow would be his burial. Let's hope that everyone can finally let go.. It may have been the closing of one's chapter, but there's still new pages to be filled by the rest of us.

Up and down

2011-09-26T14:24:00.007+08:00

Things were going really good until..................................... Sunday morning.
Heard the news that my cousin passed away. Just cannot believe it. He is so young. The boy everyone's proud of. He graduated to be a doctor, had a big dream of specializing in Cardiology and paved out his plans (to study PhD and to become a fellow professor in Paris). He was inspired to be a cardiologist after my grandpa passed away cos of stroke. He was known as the caring, loving, mature brother. His younger brother love him so much. He didn't waste his parents money even though they were rich. He strives to achieve not by money or his parent's power, but by his own abilities (even though these days anything can be gained via money esp in Indo). He invented a device that's affordable for the poorer people to diagnose cancer early and was sent by the university to give a talk in Netherlands about it. He was an awesome drummer in his band. He was known among his lecturers. Anyone who knew him in person would be proud to even be an acquaintance. But the Lord has His ways. All things come to an end, and sadly he was called back home. It saddens me so much to think about the childhood memories and all the respect I have for him. Can't believe that he was gone so soon. I don't know what to say to my uncle, aunt, and everyone involved. I wish I could be there and just hug them, cos that's all I can do. It hurts. It hurts so bad in my heart, but I'm only his cousin, imagine the tremendous pain that his parents, siblings, and my grandma must be experiencing. It hurts me even more if I try imagining that. Soon enough I will have to let go. But it's harder when we don't know the reason of his death.And no, I don't believe the newspapers. It can't be. We know him better than the journalists do.

Hore!! (hurrayyy!)

2011-09-23T10:08:00.003+08:00

Before the week break, we had 3 midsems, I studied so much for Antimicrobial Chemotherpies cos it was a hard unit and I really was not confident. Come the night before the exam, I found out that it was only worth 15%! Eek!! Should've studied more on Biochemical Pharmacolog which is worth 30%! By the time I had to study for BP, for some reason I lost all the motivation to study. I was stressing so much cos of the fact that I couldn't study!! So pissed at myself too! On the 2nd day, I gained some composure and started studying very slowly with lots of procrastination. On the last night, I fully cannot study. Shawn told me to at least study the ones I know will come up on the exam. I knew the lecturer said METHOTREXATE is definitely going to be in long answer part, but still I could not study and I just gave up! I cried and went to sleep cos I know it was useless to stay up longer.
Did the exam. And guess what? No METHOTREXATE question! Instead, the lecturer put this ~10 marks question on antihistamines, which I knew really well cos I use antihistamines on a regular basis! xD So I put my 2 favourite antihistamines in (Loratidine and Fexofenadine) as the examples. I knew the side effects cos they always make me sleepy and apparently dry mouth (which I don't experience). I take them once a day so the half life must be about 12 hours. And I fully guessed the rest of the columns. Finished the exam. Talked to some people, told them that I probably failed. Went home and tried to forget about it.

Today, the results came out! AND I PASSED :D Thank You Lord!

PS: the lecturer told us the next week after the exam that the Unit Coordinator changed the METHOTREXATE question into antihistamines last minute (2 days before the exam date) cos she thought the MCQ could give us hints on the answer. How "lucky" is that for me?? xD

More observations about difficulities in life

2011-09-22T15:02:00.003+08:00

Continuing from the previous post, a conversation with Shawn made me realise that difficulities really do make us strong. How did I come up to this conclusion? Well, I was telling Shawn about someone really inspiring (I forgot who we were talking about haha) and Shawn asked: "Did he/she have a tragic story?" then I said, "No, why must everyone inspiring have a tragic story??" Shawn replied: "Well, probably cos they've been through the worst and so they become hard working and inspiring and stuff.."

Hmmm.... that is so true! Some examples are powerful people like:
1) Steve Jobs, the founder of Apple who was adopted but he became the man who created new items that noone imagined before

2) Oprah Winfrey was "a victim of sexual abuse" when she was 14 (Wikipedia) and now she's one of the richest, most influential women in the world

3) Michael Jackson, Nicki Minaj, Eminem, and lots others all had troubled childhood but channeled their energy into music, some writing songs about their past.
4) Mother Teresa lived in a poor ridden country with dying people around her. She then started taking care of them, even if they were dying because she reckoned that ""Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat."

Now, did their difficulities prevent them from living?? No way, instead of being hopelessly sad in their unfortunate lives, they go on with more drive than most of us who have "easy" lives compared to them. They fight against all odds in reaching their dreams, whilst inspiring others. So if you have a hard life.... Don't despair! You could be the next person in the list of TIME 100 Most Influential People :D

Problems = what you need

2011-09-18T19:03:00.004+08:00

Sometimes in life we want so many things.. But instead we get problems coming our way. I found the perfect answer to this dilemma that I wanna share with everyone:

I asked for strength, and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom, and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity, and God gave me brain and brawn to work.
I asked for courage, and God gave me obstacles to overcome.
I asked for love, and God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors, and God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted, but I received everything I needed.
(by Pdt. Timur Citra Sari, told by Ci Devina)

I reckon it's so true..... When you get problems, it could actually be a way to get what you wanted and needed. Hope you found your answer just as I did today :)

let the music play 'cos I love it that way!

2011-09-06T17:19:00.013+08:00

These are the songs I love to play during different moods!
Mood Song

Boo-yeah! I can face anything!!! Nicki Minaj - Superbass

I need some strength :( Casting Crowns - Praise You in This Storm

Sad (absolute fave song atm!) Demi Lovato - Skyscraper

Feeling for some T.O.P Big Bang - I Hate This Love Song

Lovey-dovey Nicki Minaj - Your Love

Serene Coldplay - Christmas Lights

What's yours?

PERSISTENCE. PERSEVERANCE.

2011-08-31T10:26:00.005+08:00

Those would be my mum's favourite words (she was even more delighted when Obama said the same words in his speech). Probably pretty good ones to be the favourites. During busy weeks like these days, I feel like those two words are more difficult to act on than to speak. Thoughts such as "you don't belong in Pharmacy" or "You're not smart enough!" or "Should've moved to nursing in first year!" just constantly run in my mind (just like the monkey in Homer Simpson's brain).

Nevertheless, it's too late to change courses now anyway, so it's probably best to just give it the best try! The picture of the pharmacy below now stands in my desktop background (in the hope to inspire me to study so that in the future I might own that pretty pharmacy haha).

All the best everyone in anything that's currently challenging you!

"Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did." Newt Gingrich

Not an argument, more like an observation and an opinion

2011-07-23T20:10:00.002+08:00

These days, I several times see articles as well as an "Insight" program on "Should Ethics class be added to the school curriculum for the kids who are not doing RE?" Some parents demand their children's school to do this. However, it makes me think, why did those parents send their kids to these religious schools anyway? I mean, the founder of the school must have had a vision on why he/she made the school, and maybe it is to provide a school environment where children of the same religion can learn both general education as well as more about their religion. However, it is the parents choice to enrol the kids or not, and when the kids grow up, it will be the kids choice to believe it or not anyway. Parents have lots of school choices, so why send the kid there if they don't agree to the RE classes?

Another thing I've been thinking about is, some people say "Wars are caused by religion. If there were no religion, there would be no wars." Hm............. What do you guys think? I understand religion has been used numerous times as excuses for wars, but is it really because of religion? I think it's more like because it is our human nature to be competitive and to try "correct" others the way we want them to be. Wars are also started because of greed and hunger for power. For example, World War I and II, some of the biggest wars in the history of the world. Were they caused by religion? I don't think so.

What do you think?

An Awesome Award :D

2011-07-17T19:09:00.017+08:00

This award was kindly offered by my coolest fellow blogger ACHINK. Apparently, there are several stuff one needs to do when given this award! Unfortunately, it's in indo, so i'll just have to translate them into English LOL.

Translated from Achink's blog:

1) The tagged person must also post 10 things about themselves

2) Must pick 5 people to tag

3) Must visit their blog and notify them that they have been tagged

4) Don't tag back (don't tag) the person who posted the award to you

Happy posting!

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10 things about me!

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1) I really LOVE art. I love drawing, decorating, rearranging, colouring.. you name it! Choosing Pharmacy meant abandoning the dream of becoming an interior architect. But I didn't regret doing that cos I know that I can always have art as a hobby :) Even when I cook, I don't really have passion in it or anything, I just love garnishing, decorating, and arranging the food afterwards teehee

2) I'm a self confessed NARUTARD. I don't know if that's the right word for naruto fans, but a friend calls me a fellow narutard so~ Anyways, I highly recommend this anime, u guys should ALL watch naruto hohoho.. it's so inspiring, funny, and kool!

3) I'm also a tryhard. In everything I do, especially the things I'm not very good at, I really try hard.. Even if it means getting overly stressed (not sure if that's good or not haha)

4) I often think deep, sometimes too deep to the point that things start to become negative (read: I can often be a pessimist). I'm so thankful though, that I am surrounded by people who are light hearted, easy going, don't think stuff too deep, and helps me to see the bright outlook in everything :)

5) I sometimes consider being a psychologist. Why? I actually don't really know lol. It was never my dream job, but somehow I feel like I "might" be good at it. Maybe. Starting from end of high school until now, I've had 4 friends who opened up to me about some issues. And I've always felt that I want to listen, I want to help. But then I guess, you don't need to be a psychologist to help. And during uni, a number of friends started telling me their problems and asking for my advice about relationship, life, etc etc.. So I was like, hm.... And then, at the end of last year, a friend was having a get together before she left to Indo for good, and we asked her to tell each one of us a short message. And when it was my turn, she told me that I should study Master in Pscyhology after I'm done with Bachelor of Pharmacy, and another friend agreed to that. So in my mind I was like "what the................." haha! cos I was thinking about it wayy before she said that.. but anyway, I don't think I will at the moment....

oh crap, I just realised I need to write 10. Woopsie, wrote too much on the first 5 xD

6) I LOVE chewy food! e.g udon noodles, korean rice cakes, cilok, gnocchi, mochi, klepon, and many more.....

7) I have a favourite lecturer. Does anyone else have one? I feel so nerdy now LOL.. My favourite lecturer/tutor is ANDREW MCWILLIAM. He is the best :) Why? His jokes are funny and he gives hints on what will come up in the exams hehe

8) I'm very shy around new people.

9) I don't say "typo", instead I say "spello"

10) My favourite cereals are Cheerios and Milo DUO *
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This prestigious award is now given to....
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1) Cass
2) Hanna
3) Emil
4) Rosalind
5) Kelvin
Have fun guys! :D

Pandan Pancakes Part II

2011-07-16T08:54:00.003+08:00

I made these a while ago, but keep forgetting to post it. I decided to try and put drawings on the pandan pancakes, and this is how it turned out! A lot of them are a bit burned though haha..

First Attempt

Second Attempt using Egg Rings, but didn't really like the texture

Going to bring these to PPR today! :D

New semester, new job!

2011-07-14T17:48:00.002+08:00

Today was my 2nd day on my new job at the pharmacy (praising God for the new job!). I quite like this pharmacy because the owners and workers are nice, and the pharmacist allowed me to make Upton's Paste today! :D For those who don't know, this is a really thick cream that contains ingredients to get rid of warts.It was so hard cos the paste was so sticky and I had to triturate it using metal spatulas (the spatulas are the same as the one chefs use to work with melted chocolate btw hehe). At the end of it, my wrists ache so bad! But you know the saddest thing?? I had to use this ANCIENT scales to weigh out the ingredients(see picture below)!! It was so hard to use, and I had to use measured weight on one side, and then weight the powders on the other side. It was funny though cos they only had 0.1g and 0.2g so I couldn't measure the 0.5g properly. The pharmacist told me to just add a lil bit extra. So, unlike the scales we used at uni (accurate to 3 decimal points), I'm measuring using this probably not very accurate scales! Ancient too! Did I tell you, one of the weights are still in "ounce"??

So anyways, even though it was sad to leave the previous pharmacy behind, this pharmacy is better in a lot of ways. New owners, new customers, new company and new stuff to learn.I'm thankful for the previous pharmacy to teach me about a lot of things though, otherwise I'd be the clueless one in this pharmacy! Currently I'm still on a 2 months probation, so we'll see in 2 months if I'll be working there permanently or not :)

Pandan Pancake :)

2011-07-02T16:55:00.001+08:00

Today, I made some Pandan Pancakes! I've been craving something pandan these days and I thought, well why not pancake? it's so easy to make, just add pandan flavouring? And this is how it turned out:

The taste reminds me of the street vendors who sell the cakes shown below outside my primary school. Not as good offcourse! xD After school I would visit these vendors and get all these yummy snacks! Sadly, we don't have street vendors in Australia, but it's okay, will get some the next time I go Indo teehee.

Random post: HARDCORE STUDY SESSION

2011-06-12T16:57:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you about a story that I experienced last year at Curtin Library.
I was studying one day on one of the computers in library when this guy arrived and sat on the comp next to me. He took out a packet of skittles and took out his files and stationery. I was thingking: wow, this guy is gonna have a hardcore study sesh! (can tell from the sugar supply). And then I look at his screen a couple of minutes later to see what he's studying on , and guess what, he's watching anime.-.- oh rite.....

New post coming up :)

2011-06-11T23:23:00.003+08:00

Hi all! Hope you've been having a pretty decent week.. (considering that most of us are busy with exams,etc).
I've just thought of something that just fluttered in my mind, but I've only written the really rough post.. I'll continue editing it after the exams done and over with.. Sometimes, I'm kinda a perfectionist, don't wanna put out something unedited haha.. Better wait a bit longer and post a carefully thought piece of writing.
So for now, study hard if ure having exams!! And I'll share the post soon! :D

Pippa and Shaki says hi!

Too Cute!

2011-05-31T11:59:00.002+08:00

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that time of the year again...

2011-05-22T20:48:00.004+08:00

Good evening (or morning or afternoon depending on when this post is read)
ladies and gentlemen!

How have your days been? Hopefully it's been good or okay..
Mine has been pretty busy.. Mostly with studying for the finals! Can't believe it's that time of the year again.. But at least I've only got 4 more of this to go.. after that it's holidays! :D
Always remember to motivate yourself peeps.. Remind yourself on why you're studying/working :) Will post more stuff probably after the exams done and over with..

Meanwhile, I'd like to share with you this song, which was so inspirational for me. One reason is because it reminds me that we are not living in this world on our own, there are others that we also need to care about. Hope it brings a blessing to you :)

The World Wide Web

2011-05-08T16:32:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! Happy Mother's day and happy Sunday to you all!

The topic this time is about THE WORLD WIDE WEB.

Facebook, twitter, and all the kinds, these days they're probably a significant part of our life. People like to post every little tinnie winnie bits of their life. From the daily mobile uploads, status updates, check-ins (I do these too xD)...

But sometimes I think to myself, are these really necessary? Apparently some people just do all these to increase their popularity, to show people that they've been to the hippest place on the planet, to show how happy they are and how many friends they have.. But sometimes, I think we need to appreciate our own privacy.. Keep some things to ourselves and the people that were present in the event. The whole world doesn't have to know all about it..Cos only the people who were in it will remember it in their hearts :) I'm not saying posting all those on Facebook is not good. It definitely has its own advantages! Such as easiness to share photos to other ppl, etc.. But things like your romantic dinners with ur bf/gf, or the special family get-togethers.. Wouldn't it be more special if it was all shared only between you and the other people involved? ;) What do you think?

THE CUTEST BRIDESMAID

2011-05-02T11:19:00.002+08:00

I'm sure everyone watched the Royal Wedding the day before yesterday! Did you???
I gotta say, everything was so beautiful and fairytale like, but the one that really sticks in my mind is that lil bridesmaid. I noticed throughout the wedding she's always frowning lol!!!!! and then when Price William and Kate kissed in the balcony, she totally stole the show aye!! Just check out the picture below xD

I figured out the NO HEAT wavy hair! :D

2011-04-28T16:02:00.018+08:00

Hi all! Been a long time since I last blogged, and just now I got inspired to write a blog, so here it is! :) What is it about this time? HOW TO DO WAVY HAIR WITH NO HEAT!

For those who've known me for agessssssss you would've know that I have the coarsest, frizziest, thickest, DRIEST, wavy/messy hair..... And for a long time, I've been so confused on what to do, cos majority of Asians have straight hair.. And so, I don't know how to work the kind of hair I have. Straightening hair everyday is not an option, because:

I don't have time
I cbb lol!
It damages my already dry hair.

And I have decided that permanent hair straightening/smoothing is not for me because apparently it can damage your hair further, and it also contains the chemical Formylaldehyde which is a known cancer causing chemical! :O

So for those of you out there with similar hair like mine, don't dread! We don't have to have straight hair to be pretty! There are heaps of gorgeous girls out there with wavy hair ;)

If you'd like to try it out, here are the steps:

Wash hair with extra2 moisturising shampoo and heaps of conditioner
Towel dry hair and apply hair oil, heaps and HEAPS of them (I use The Body Shop Monoi Miracle Oil because it doesn't react with my sensitive skin) P.S only do this if you have dry hair
Braid your hair from the top back all the way to the bottom and secure with hair tie
Grab a scarf and cover the top of your head to flatten and minimize frizz on the top part of your hair, tie the scarf at the back below the braided hair.
Leave it like that until your hair dries naturally.
Once it's dry, take off the scarf and the braid, apply more hair oil if necessary, and twist the left and right sections of your hair to manage the waves. Voila! All done :) Easy, no heat from curling tongs, no breakages, healthier and shinier looking wavy hair!

Good luck! :D

The wavy hair. Excuse the low quality photo taken by my old Sony Ericsson
and my amateur camwhoring skills lols!

Scirbbly thoughts

2011-04-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

Hello readers (if there are any xD),

I welcome u all again to another Grumble rumble ramble post about my life.. i know it's boring and probably meaningless to you all *sighpies*.. But what can I say, I need a platform to drain all these hazy, scribbly thoughts from my head.. So ya'll can become the platform :D teehee.

Scribbly thought no 1) Studying pharmacy

I've talked about this before.. And as the months go by, it doesn't get any better :( Pharmacy just keep on getting harder and harder for me. I often think that I'm SO not smart enough to do this course.. But since I've started it for 2 years already, might as well finish it off.. It's not like I don't like the units or the profession, it's just the workload is wayyy too much. I'm only doing 3 units now (unlike other pharmacy studentswho are doing 5), but it's actually a lot of work already. Let me give you an idea.........during the midsem exams, I still had uni. So between studying for the exams, I also had to prepare and go to 3 hour lab and a 2 hours tute and another 1 hour tute. I pretty much skipped all the lectures irrelevant to the upcoming midsem. (Which I now regret coz I now have to catch up for them >.<). And these leave me so tired and just got enough energy to study. And this leads to thought no 2.

Scribbly thought no 2) Neglecting housework

As a result of spending all my energy on uni stuff, I pretty much have limited time and energy doing housework. And that really sucks because in my house, the only people who clean are me, dad, and my bro. My mum cooks and do other stuffs. But, my dad works quite a lot so he gets pretty tired. And my bro, hm let me just say that he procrastinates a lot more than he does housework -.-. Sometimes I envy him coz his life is like one big holiday. Well, I guess his job require him to do more physical work (Chef) so maybe he gets tired when he gets home.. But still!! at least he doesn't have homeworks or tests coming up??? So anyways, neglecting housework makes me feel guilty, but I really CANNOT fail any units AGAIN. So everytime there are tests coming up, I totally focus on them. After all, if I screw this up, it will be another delay to graduation, which means I'll need to rely on my parents financially even longer (which I don't really want to do because I know they're getting older...). And I just feel that I'm rushed to graduate ASAP since I'm the last kid in the family, and I think my parents has had enough of supporting us LOL. So yah :( And my mum is like me, we both get really stressed pretty fast.. And so, when she gets stressed, it gets me stressed, and it makes me want to graduate and earn money asap to stop her from stressing... I'm so scared she gets like really high blood pressure.. And my dad, well he's work a lot for all of us, so I think it's time for us to pay back.

Scribbly thought no 3) Disease

Hm.. I don't know if you can call this disease/condition, but anyway... I've just recently found out that I have this "condition". I haven't told ppl and only my sister and my bf knows about it..But it gets worse when I'm stressed/studying... So, when I'm stressed/studying, I exacerbate this condition, and therefore I get even more stressed because of it.. Does that make sense? lol. And no, it's not eczema. My eczema is under control now except just on the back of my neck, but it's okay, I can live with that.

Scribbly thought no 4) The desire to learn more about the Bible

Since I attended some bible studies at uni (with this group called IBF: International Bible Fellowship), I've learnt so much about the bible! And it's very interesting, because sometimes as Christians, we don't actually read the bible that much. Which is pretty silly coz it is like the "life guide" of every Christian. And after learning more about it, I was able to explain it to people who ask me, and most importantly, I really learned more about the God I believe in, and purpose of my life in this world. However, uni and church commitments actually prevent me from learning more. Ironic isn't it? Because the time I spend in studying, going to uni, time spent preparing for church volunteering work, just really test my time management skills to the max. But thing is, even with time management, it's still so hard to fit all of them together, because after all, I have limited energy in me. Which is so crappppppp.. I wish I have more energy and more than 24 hours in a day! But oh well... So anyway, the point is, I often miss the bible study sessions (which is held on Friday 4-6pm and Sunday 3-5pm). Because by 4pm, I'd be too tired from uni and on Sunday I got no transport to go there since I don't drive... I should learn how to drive aye..

Scribbly thought summary

So all these pretty much stress me everyday.. But writing it here I guess kinda relieve the stress cos now that I got it typed down, I can see that it's actually only a total of 4 scribbly thoughts! (in my mind it feels like there are so many!) And I'm actually thinking of talking to the counselors at Curtin's health services (since it's free anyway :) I know a couple of my friends go there to get counselling cos of the stress from uni and life.. So might give it a try since they said it's pretty good...

That's it! What's your scribbly thoughts? :)

HOHOHO I FINISH MY MIDSEM

2011-04-15T09:23:00.000+08:00

Finally I can relieve my stress, which has been heightened up these past few weeks! But that doesn't mean I'm completely free.. 1 assignment to do.. And offcourse must study everynow and then or otherwise ill have to cram real bad in the finals.. :S

This song is good btw.. James Morrison has one of the BEST voice in the world!! <3

study mood, hard to build, easy to break

2011-04-05T22:58:00.004+08:00

I had a really bad day today... Been trying to study for this exam, but ended up only doing 1 lecture in the morning (didn't even finish that 1 lecture!)
Then at night.. I had the motivation to study, so I studied pretty well.. Suddenly something happened :S
And then I just couldn't study. AT ALL -.-

Ended up scribbling this picture on a piece of scrap paper..
The picture depicts a real story (except the palm which is non-existent near where shaki usually sits).
When I leave Shaki's food outside, he doesn't eat it unless I sit right next to him and wait until he finish it. So, in the end, he just stares at the door, waiting for ppl to open door for him... Letting the ants eat his food -.- The ants must love him so much, and they're probably having a feast down there in their underground headquarter...

Shaki and the Ants

I hope it's been a productive day for you all! (Just like the ants who worked very hard to carry all those food, and now they can have the all-you-can-eat buffet of Shaki's food for supper) :)

such is life.

2011-03-17T15:32:00.001+08:00

First of all, sorry about the randomness.
In the midst of intense studying, I feel like updating my blog..
But nothing much had been on my mind except these:

1) NERDING
2) nerding
3) feeding shaki
4) wash up the plates
5) nerding
6) stressing
7) making appointment and showing people who want to rent rooms
8) cook and eat
9) play with shaki
10) church multimedia stuff
11) stressing
12) church camp stuff
13) nerding
14) thingking about where to put shaki when we all go to camp
11) STRESSING (midsems coming up in about 4 weeks time!)

2011-02-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

Hm.. it seems that I kinda got bored of blogging hahah.. A asked me why I haven't blogged and apparently she was waiting for me to post about the Tiger Mum thing.. But thing is.. I've got a number of things that inspire me to blog.. But like.. Just haven't found the time and the right mood to do it yet.. I'm guessing it's cos I'm not stressed atm.. Also, since my sister stole my laptop to Melbourne, I can't type my blog in my own personal room.. It's kinda awkward to write a blog post in the main room where the computer is (especially if Dad/Bro is there).. so yah... whereas when I'm in my room I usually think more about stuff.. hence the blog was born!

So for now.. I guess I'll update a bit on what's goin on in my life..

I came back from Indonesia last week. It would be the first time I've been back there since three years ago. Things have definitely change. A lot of my cousins are married and they even have kids! Now I find myself getting called Aunty, which is a huge change since I used to call everyone Cici (read: jie jie) since I am the youngest of all of my cousins in my Dad's family and 2nd youngest in Mum's family. I feel so honoured to be called Aunty Monica :D hohohoho Finally I am superior to someone! MUAHAHAHA... (what a sad person)

So that was the happy news.. cute nephews and nieces and to be called Aunty :) Next is the saddish part.. Life for my Ema (grandma's from Mum's side) has been pretty good. She had both her knees operated and now she has strong, straight legs which allow her to walk further and climb stairs and play with Shaki as much as she would want to. She's able to go out more with the rest of us, and everyone was amazed when she went back to Indo.

But on the other hand, it's been sad for my family because my Oma (grandma from dad's side) has forgotten everything.. Her dementia is pretty bad now.. She doesn't even remember that she used to have a husband and she has kids.. So that's sad because my family used to live with her and I remember she was such a caring and loving grandmother to all of us. But now she doesn't even know me! Nevertheless, I was still inspired because she's always so cheerful and always joke around.. Which makes all of us laugh :)
For example.. My dad asked her for some Ang Pao.. And then she said: "Ang Pao??? Haiya!!!! (raising her hand as if she's fighting an enemy ninja style)" and then she laugh and we all laugh because even after all these years and with her memory lost, she is still able to joke around with everyone..

We also visited my Ema's brother.. Who is now living alone with his caretaker.. His wife passed away late last year.. It was so sad for me cos the last time I went back Indo, she was still alive.. And they were still showing us picture of them doing Yoga stretches (which needs crazy flexibility) and claimed that they could still do it. They even taught my brother how to walk with the perfect posture.. (They were yoga teachers by the way).. But now it was only him alone.. :(

Next we visited my Engkong (grandpa from mum's side) sister.. When we met her she looked so weak and much skinnier than before.. I was so sad because she used to be cheerful too and would talk to us grandkids in English.. And when I arrived back in Perth, she went to the hospital.. And now she is in HCU (High Care Unit) :( So we are all really praying for her to get better..

So yah.. sorry that this post is mostly about my old relatives.. And really sad stories too.. :(
But I'm currently worried for my Engkong's sister and I hope that she will be ok.. Cos even though she is not directly my grandma.. She is to me like an Aunt..

Back in my home country, Indonesia!

2011-02-09T23:56:00.002+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog lately.. This is because I'm currently on a holiday in Indo for 2 weeks.. Things have been good.. After all its been 3 years since I went here the last time.. Things are changing, even the bank next door is renovated into a beautiful Patisserie and Cafe called The Harvest. My grandma doesn't remember me or my dad anymore.. In fact she doesn't remember anyone (dementia). Met a lot of my relatives, but my uncles and aunts mostly live on their own now since their children are married. Lots of things happened.. Happy things, thoughtful things.. Things that makes me ponder and I guess in a way makes me wiser hehe :)

Probably will tell you next time when I'm back in Perth!

For now, hope you're all having a nice holiday!!!

..Greetings from Bandung..

Literally :S

2011-01-26T12:20:00.001+08:00

This picture describes my day today..

:) for Australian Day Fireworks and Shawn coming back from singapore in about 1 hour time
:( for my sister going to Melbourne in about 3 and a half hours

utter shock.

2011-01-24T20:43:00.003+08:00

I cannot believe this is happening. Well here was the plan... Our whole family (for the first time) will be going back to Indonesia for 2 weeks to celebrate my parents wedding anniversary and my grandma's 92nd birthday. We would go to Bali, Bandung, Jakarta.. It would be the epic family holiday since the Eurotrip 2 years ago!

However, this morning my dad told me that mum got an email saying that Yvonne my sister is accepted in Dentistry in University of Melbourne. What does this mean? Well let me say that my mum have ALWAYS had a dream that Yvonne would be a doctor one day. She would push my sister to do UMAT, GAMSAT, go to Sydney to do Medical Science, etc etc. And even after my sister already finished Med Science, my mum is never backing down on not pushing her daughter to become a doctor. So this offer means A LOT for our family. This is because my mum is pretty much the main decision maker of the family. And she is also known to be the "maker of sudden changes" woman. And so, my sister is going to Melbourne first thing this Monday with my mum because the uni starts already on that day. Crazy? hah... I'm pretty much shocked.. Cos number one, the Indo holiday would not be the whole family, number two, my sister is moving to Melbourne for 4 years starting next week.. :S

What does this mean for the church? Well, my sister is the leader of our Youth Camp this year which will be held in March. We've nearly finished all the preparations of the camp. And all of a sudden, we would need to find a new leader. Secondly, she is a sunday school teacher.. So the Sunday School would lose 1 scarce resource. Number three: I cannot imagine her living apart from her boyfriend for another 4 years after 3 years of separation when she was in Sydney.

So yeah. :S This is shocking. Great cos finally my mum reach her dreams. Sad cos.. well... it's sad for me...... :'( *teary*

Goodbye again to Shaki's Big Momma..

:( :( :(

I wanna be the loving, cheerful grandmother!

2011-01-19T14:19:00.010+08:00

There are two types of old people in this world:

1) The cheerful, beaming, loved-by-everyone old man/old woman

2) The bitter, grumpy, suspicious-of-the-world old man/old woman

A recent news about my grandma in Indo who has dementia made me want to write a blog post about this. And also I've met a lot of senior customers in the pharmacy and other places. Let's start by telling you about some of them..

Type no 1: The Cheerful Senior

There is this old chap who always hums and sings as he comes into the pharmacy. Despite his completely white hair, I can't believe he's 70 with his 19th century styled golf cap. He would greet us the pharmacy assitants: "Hello little ones! How are you today? I'm here to see my old friend (the pharmacist) up there!" Then he will walk up to where the dispensary is and greet any customers on the way. Such a lovely old man isn't he! He would definitely brighten everyone's day just for coming into the pharmacy to get his scripts filled in. There is also this old lady who used to come to Chooks with her husband. She has dementia (she doesn't remember anything), sometimes she even ask her husband "Who are you?". Some old people who have dementia would get scared all the time because they don't know where they are etc etc. But this woman is different, she would come into the store with her husband saying "Oh what a lovely store!! I love the colours here, they're all so bright!". Do you see what I'm getting at? :)

Type no 2: The bitter old "Boggis, Bunce, and Bean"

NB: For those who haven't watch Fantastic Mr Fox would have no idea who Boggis, Bunce, and Bean are. I was referring to scary old men who are not very friendly.

Some old customers that come into the pharmacy doesn't talk much and they always frown when they hand in the script.. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I did/say anything wrong, and sometimes I feel guilty for being too cheerful in case it's annoying to them. Maybe it's because they're in pain or tired I don't know.. But it's the complete opposite of the previous two I mentioned. Some are not completely "Boggis, Bunce, and Bean" but they are suspicious of the people around them, especially those whom they discriminate (e.g. if they see customers of other races, etc). Some fight with their children all the time. Some are afraid of change. All these unhappy characteristics which I'm sure is somehow caused by the things that they encounter in the past (wars, etc) or how other people treat them.

These people who didn't have a very good past life was very unfortunate. But for the rest of us, so far we haven't been in any war situations, especially my generation. Our countries have been pretty peaceful compared to the wars in the Middle East and African countries. So let us all be grateful for that, and do so by being more cheerful about every single thing. If I get dementia when I grow older, I would want the good memories to be kept and hence become the loving happy grandmother of Type no 1 to my grandkids. So maybe if I start being cheerful about every single thing in my life now, accept everyone no matter who they are, and share compassion, my brain would be accustomed to being like that till the end of my life :) What about you?

"Money doesn't buy happiness"

2011-01-15T22:56:00.001+08:00

Oh that cliché! Haven't we all heard of it? A lot of people somewhat disagree, but I couldn't agree more :)

People would then add statements like "Money doesn't buy happiness, but it buys THINGS to MAKE you happy" or "Whoever said money doesn't make you happy, obviously doesn't know where to shop" xD

Well truth is, those are all somewhat true. And money really is important in our lives. But even if you had an unlimited amount of money, can you really be truly happy?

Okay, imagine this scenario. You just got your week's pay yesterday, you were so happy that you can finally buy that dress you've always wanted! But then, now that you've bought that dress.. Are you truly satisfied and happy? I don't think so, I'm sure you would think of thousands of other things you wish you could buy, and would soon start saving up from your work money to buy other stuff after you get bored of that dress! So the statement above to me sounds more like: "Money doesn't buy you happiness, but it buys THINGS to MAKE you happy TEMPORARILY"

I believe that true happiness comes from being content and grateful. When you start to be thankful of your life, you'll be happy because you feel blessed with all these things that you already have. I know this because I grew up in Indonesia with my maids and babysitters. They were not that well off, and they had so much less money than my family, but then they were not like SAD. They were just content, thankful that they have a job, thankful that they can earn money for their families back home, thankful that they have a house to live in, thankful that they're not out there in the streets as beggars! They always seem so happy and me and my sister love to play with their kids and just chilling out at the back with our maids..

In contrast, in a general view, there are a lot of celebrities who are just filthy rich, but they end up in jails, getting drunk, got involved with drugs, in and out of rehabs, and numerous love scandals. Celebrity splits are not rare and those who remain married are so rare these days. Would that be called a happy life? Are they any happier than me, you, my maids back in indo, or those hobos on the streets?

I'll leave you to decide :)

"Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumblebee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams." - Ashley Smith

"Let us acknowledge all good, all delight that the world holds, and be content." - George MacDonald

"To have everything is happiness. All the things I already have is everything to me. Therefore, I have everything already." - Forgot where I heard it from :)

Skin Care for Eczema

2011-01-13T00:13:00.005+08:00

I feel like doing something different so thought about doing a skin care routine! :D These products have been helping me to control my eczema and so far it's been pretty good. The last time I use my prescription Cortisone creams would probably middle of last year. From then on till now, I've only been using these products and some others but I've put here my favourite. For those with problem, sensitive, and dry skin, I really recommend these. For those with acne, I recommend the Tea Tree Oil too! :)

face

loving: Olay Moisturising Lotion, Tea Tree Oil, Bio Oil
wanting to try: Aveeno Positively Radiant Daily Moisturiser

body

loving Dermaveen Lotion and Curash Anti-Rash Powder

wanting to try Aveeno Skin Relief Moisturising Cream with Cooling Menthol

face wash

loving Dermeze Soap Free Wash, St Ives Apricot Scrub

body wash

loving Aqueous Cream, Ecotools body loofah bath sponge

The Blind Side

2011-01-11T23:36:00.002+08:00

I just watched this movie called The Blind Side. Ended up crying in the middle of the movie and tears run down like a river towards the end! Lols.

Here is the synapsis of the movie from Rotten Tomatoes:

"Synopsis: The Blind Side depicts the remarkable true story of Michael Oher, a homeless African-American youngster from a broken home, taken in by the Touhys, a well-to-do white family who help him fulfill his potential. At the same time, Oher's presence in the Touhys' lives leads them to some insightful self-discoveries of their own. Living in his new environment, the teen faces a completely different set of challenges to overcome. As a football player and student, Oher works hard and, with the help of his coaches and adopted family, becomes an All-American offensive left tackle. Based on the book The Blind Side: Evolution of a Game by Michael Lewis"

But the amazing thing about this movie is, you really realise how random acts of kindness not only can give a person a blessing for that one time, but it can also change his/her whole future into a better one. I realised this towards the end, when the mother of the family read a newspaper article about this African-American boy from a broken home, the same as Michael Oher (her son), who died in gang shooting or something like that. And that's when she realised that that boy could have been anyone, he could have been Michael. But their act of kindness had changed Michael's future, so that he didn't become like that.

And that's why I was so inspired, and let us all do the same. Do random acts of kindness. We never know how that may change that persons life! :)

We should also pray for those who are in the Queensland floods. Especially families who had lost their loved ones in the disaster. And may we all be more thankful that we are all still alive today and safe from natural disasters.

Really?

2011-01-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

Someone told me I look like her:

Is it true? What do you think??
Comment
or vote the :) box if you think yes
or the :( box if you think no
haha..

busybusybusy

2011-01-08T22:23:00.004+08:00

will update soon! :)

On another note, PBS medications that used to cost us $5.40 has now gone up to $5.60! It keeps going up doesn't it?!

2010??

2011-01-07T13:36:00.003+08:00

Got this from Cass' blog.. thought I'd do the q's too! :)

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?
- Translate for the girls and Shawn who has limited English at PPR (Church Youth)
- Did the dispensing at the pharmacy
- heaps of other things which I cbb writing haha

2. Did you keep your New Year’s Resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- well generally, to study hard and I think I did pretty good this year :) Especially 2nd semester
- also to be more helpful at church and to the people around me.. I hope I achieved that..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not really.. My cousin did..

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No..

5. What countries did you visit?
Australia haha

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
More confidence and to be able to be less sensitive

7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
18th February 2010 because ;)

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Introducing my hun to Jesus Christ :) which off course was not done by me alone, but by the works from above..

9. What was your biggest failure?
Failed to be a good friend to one of my best friends

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Um, sort of.. Would cataracts be considered illness/injury?

11. What was the best thing someone bought you?
Their kindness, selflessness, and honesty.
Oh, wait, is this materialistic wise? Hm... Probably the dog necklace Shawn gave me but was chosen by my bro and sis lols!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
- Du Vinh for his enthusiasm in serving the Lord and leading Focus
- My pharmacy friend Sarah for her kindness and helpfulness to the friends around her :)
- My grandma for her strong-will and strength in undergoing the 2nd knee replacement surgery
- Shawn for putting up with my crazy talks and numerous breakdowns during the year :)

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and/or depressed?
There are always dissapointments when you have relationships with people. All I do is to try to forgive them for the behaviours and to think of the other numerous goodwill they've done in the past. After all, I'm not myself perfect.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, drinks, and skincare :D

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Was going to Indo with Shawn, but my dad didn't allow him to lols..

16. What songs will always remind of 2010?
Jay Sean DOWN lols.. wait.. was that 2009?
Otherwise it would be Bruno Mars - Just the way you are

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) happier or sadder?
Happier in general

b) fatter or skinnier?
haha definitely FATTER
c) richer or poorer?
Richer both financially, happiness and friendship wise :)

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Being able to spend more time with my best friend, who somehow I never get time for because of uni and other stuff going on..

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Studying. LOL but I have to study anyway..

20. How do you plan to spend Christmas?
That's past already.. and didn't do much.. Went to church, home, and got ready to say goodbye to bro and sis who went to exmouth the next day!

21. Did you fall in love in 2010?
Yes lol

22. How many one night stands?
None!

23. What was your favourite TV programme?
It's still The Simpsons :)

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Not really.. Only 1 guy lol.. but thats for a reason I don't even know why.. Should probably stop..

25. What was the best book you read?
Hm... good point.. Didn't read any lols..

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I can actually kinda sing! lol..

27. What did you want and get?
There are heaps! Can't remember..

28. What did you want and not get?
To be able to maintain my close friendships but it didn't really work..

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
Harry potter, Despicable me. Harry Potter was really good though!

30. What did you do on your birthday?
Worked hahah... Was so tired and then got woken up at 12am in a cold, windy night to blow a freezing Ice Cream cake lols! That was good still...

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Hm.. no idea... I think it was satisfying already..

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Definitely dresses! They're so easy and comfy to wear :D

33. What kept you sane?
Shawn and Shaki lol

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Barack Obama for his ability to lead and his eloquence. He also gave hope to open the minds of a lot of Indonesians that anyone can be a big thing in the future. I especially thought about those who are less fortunate and I hope that they can be inspired to strive to be better by hardwork and determination.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Hmm.. I'd rather not say to the anonymous net world but you could probably guess...

36. Who do you miss?
Mr Shawn Tan who left me for singapore for 1 month!

37. Who was the best new person you met?
Hm.. not sure...

38. What was the best thing you ate?
Hm.. I'll get back to that.. ahhaha.. maybe macaroons? But I've tasted that in 2009..

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010?
The world can be a depressing place, where all your hopes and dreams can get crushed so easily.. There are so many issues that I worry about currently happening in the world.. But I learned that I should at least start with the people around me to bring about change. And I also learn to always look out for those people who continue to inspire me in my goals.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Jeremy Camp - There Will be a Day , which was a song that constantly encouraged me to keep going with my studies, problems, etc :)

HOT weather = lazy

2011-01-05T16:55:00.004+08:00

yeaph.. pretty much! Especially if the aircon is Evaporative, not Refrigerative ones.. they simply don't work in humid weather sigh.. So today was pretty much boring and i cbb doing anything.. I finished the novel I bought yesterday, it's called Hands Me Down World by Lloyd Jones. I bought it using a Dymocks gift card I got 4 years ago from ESL because I was the best ESL student for that semester/year (cant remember) hahah.. But never ended up spending it and I somehow lost it. My mum found it last year under the carpet of our car in Indonesia. LOL weird right? I think she must have put it in her wallet and then accidentally drop it while in Indo. So despite all the scratches and the ancient looks of the card, I still manage to redeem it yay! :D

The lesson here is that, if you have a gift card that's already expired, ask the counter if you can still use it.. Maybe you can :)

On another note, I've been pretty unenthusiastic about becoming a retail pharmacist, because it doesn't seem that good with all the dodgy customers who aren't grateful for your work and advice.. But then this week has been a good week! Been meeting nice customers and I'm beginning to be able to give advice with more confidence.. The owner also gives me tips and things that I should watch out for if one day I own a pharmacy.. So it's all good.. Maybe I will own a pharmacy in the future if I have enough money... :Hopefully ones with the automatic dispenser and chutes going down from upstairs like this one :D :

1000 Awesome Things

2011-01-03T09:42:00.002+08:00

I love this blog! Check it out: 1000 Awesome Things :D

You think I'm pretty without any make up on...

2011-01-01T22:17:00.008+08:00

Heard of those lyrics? Yes, it's from Katy Perry's song called Teenage Dream.. which is a pretty good song! Isn't that an amazing thing these days? If a guy likes us girls even if we don't use make up? In a world dominated by make up and vanity, it seems that some people cannot live without it. As I saw in this reality show, which I can't remember the name of, a mum tried to tame her daughter by threatening her that she would take the daughter's make up if she didn't do what the mum wants. And so, the daughter gave in. I'm thankful that if my mum ever confiscate my make up, it wouldn't be a big deal for me.

I'm not against make up, it's actually pretty fun to apply hehe, I'm just thankful that I'm not dependant on it, I very rarely use makeup. But I do worry about the future, like I'd be sad if my daughter would feel insecure without make up because the rest of the world demands the use of it. We all need to feel confident in our own skin don't we?

I got thinking to writing this post after seeing this article: Brand tweets pic of Perry without make-up. Katy Perry's husband took a picture of her without make up, and we can see how different she looks. But she still is beautiful, but off-course in the entertainment industry and even in the eyes of a lot of people in our world, the no make up look will be frowned upon, if not mocked.

So, I'd like to encourage the girls out there, to try to be comfortable in your own skin. I've been through a phase when I had reallyyyyy bad skin because of eczema, and I couldn't put any makeup on it because it will aggravate the skin even more. But it's amazing how my crush at the time ended up liking me even at those moments. Also, Jessica Simpson had a magazine photo shoot without any make up on. I'm sure that we can all do that too right? :)

New Year's Eve

2010-12-31T09:42:00.007+08:00

Saying goodbye is hard. As we drive down the road to drop me home, it was so hard to speak. Occasional jokes and thoughts uttered from the mouth but not much else. Not because we don't want to, but because we can't. Partly because any words that comes will instead burst as a choke of tears, and partly because there was so little time left as the clock ticks to that farewell. We'd rather stay quiet and devour each second together wisely before we see each other for the last time... this year. Bon Voyage, Dear! : ' )

a blogger's block

2010-12-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

That is what I think is happening to me nowadays. I notice that I generally write a lot when I am stressed or when I am stressed and then got inspired by something which help me to cope with it. However, these days haven't been particularly stressful. Holidays is just a relaxing part of life.. No exam and study stress mainly..
Sometimes ideas come up on what I want to share in the blog, but then forgotten afterwards lols..
So, sorry about that.. and will try to write when I have a stressful situation next time hahah...
Oh, and also, talking about the previous post, I just remembered that I used to work for Chooks and Kmart as well.. And Chooks teach me several things as well.. But Kmart, not really lols.. maybe will talk about it one day.. For now... Have a good holiday everyone! And I shall be lonely for new years because my siblings are in exmouth, mum is in indo, and shawn will be in singapore at that time... fun. hahahh.. shud be allrite :)

Oh! and me and my friends watched this christmas lights last Thursday! It's the best christmas lights ive ever seen in my life!!! So awesome!!!! I thought the youtube video was edited, but when I went it's actually like this.. except with lots of ppl watching and occasional fake snow coming out of a machine :D Enjoy!

The Lessons of Life

2010-12-15T21:34:00.008+08:00

Well, not really the lessons of my whole life, but only the lessons I learnt from work after about 7 years of being in the workforce (this makes me sound like a pro veteran or sumtin xD). I often complain about work, but right now I think I should be very thankful that I have a job and am learning precious life skills from it. Just wanted to share it to you guys and keep a record for myself to look back in the future :)

First Job: Junkmail Delivery Girl
1) Do as much as you can today, so you can do less tomorrow.
2) Exercise really does keep the weight down.. Should do more these days..

Second Job: Burger Girl at Hungry Jack's
1) Try to not be too shy and toughen yourself up. Be braver to talk what's in your mind instead of being quiet. I used to be verryyyy quiet cos I was too shy to talk to anyone.
2) There is a reason why it's called "FAST FOOD", everything must be fast!!!
3) Learnt to not be too sensitive, especially when dealing with angry customers or managers scolding.
4) Beware of cheeseburns when taking out burgers from the microwave....

Third Job: Pizza Girl at Domino's
1) Learnt how to count change without using calculator. Yay! :D

Fourth Job: 2 months Casual Cleaner at Walsh's pharmacy in Sydney
1) Eucalyptus oil works wonders for cleaning sticky dirts!

Fifth Job: Pharmacy Assistant at a pharmacy (probably not a good idea to write the name haha)
1) Slow down, check, then check and check! Can't afford to make mistakes with people's medications
2) Pharmacy customers are much more patient than Fast Food customers.. Guess they wouldn't mess with the ppl who are handling their medications lol..
3) Be aware of shoplifters, even if it's just a small, innocent faced little boy. (This boy smiled at me and then grabbed a can of deodorant and ran out the door lol)
4) Connections may be very useful for your future career
5) Good relations with employers and coworkers will make everyone's day much bearable/funner at work :)
6) Don't get too sensitive over scoldings by managers/pharmacists. Instead learn from the mistake and do better next time. After all, these skills will help me if I become a pharmacist one day!

The future of pharmacy?

2010-12-09T10:05:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was the Pharmacy's work Christmas dinner. It was held at Burswood Atrium and everyone came except 2 or 3 people. It was pretty fun and we did Secret Santa thing and my secret santa gave me a Sportsgirl makeup bag and a lip jam which looked really cute :)

In the middle of the dinner, the owner of the pharmacy made an annoucement. He is going to sell the pharmacy because he is getting older and it's time for him to slow down. Everyone were so sad cos this owner is like the best boss everyone ever has! He is soooo nice! So things are gonna be so different starting from next year.

I waited for a while to get a lift and this other pharmacist was also waiting for her husband. So I talked to her about work, pharmacy course, and her newly born daughter :). She is now on a work leave and will be working part time next year as she just had her baby. She told me that she is worried after hearing the sudden news because she may not be able to work there anymore under the new owner because the new owner may not want to hire a part timer.

And that got me thingking, the future of pharmacy job is not very clear, just like any other jobs. Apparently the graduates exceed the amount of work placements available. Meaning, it's gonna be harder to find a job in the future. As well as this, what if say, I get married and have children lol. It'd be even harder to find a job because I wouldn't be able to work much. Also, in order to keep my Pharmacist license I cannot neglect work for more than 2 or 3 years (not sure).

Hmmm... It's a thought that a Pharmacy student would have to think about....
But as the pharmacist said to me: The pharmacy students in their final year now would be worrying, but for you, don't worry, the future could actually be better :) yay!

Oh, Christmas lights, keep shining on :)

2010-12-07T12:08:00.004+08:00

Christmas night
Another fight
Tears we cried, a flood
Got all kinds of poison in
Of poison in my blood
I took my feet to Oxford Street
Tried to right a wrong
Just walk away, those windows say
But I can't believe she's gone

When you're still waiting for the snow to fall
It doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

Cup of candles, oh they flicker
Oh, they flicker and they flow
And I'm up here holding onto all those chandeliers of hope
Like some drunken Elvis singing
I go singing out of tune
Saying how I always loved you, darling
And I always will

But when you're still waiting for the snow to fall
Doesn't really feel like Christmas at all
When you're still waiting for the snow to fall
It doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

Those Christmas lights
Light up the street
Down where the sea and city meet
May all your troubles soon be gone
Oh, Christmas lights, keep shining on

Those Christmas lights
Light up the street
Maybe they'll bring her back to me
Then all my troubles will soon be gone
Oh, Christmas lights, keep shining on

Those Christmas lights
Light up the street
Light up the fireworks in me
May all your troubles soon be gone
Those Christmas lights, keep shining on
~
Christmas Lights by Coldplay

EXAMS OVER :D

2010-11-25T01:08:00.005+08:00

Hohoho!

And I cannot believe that it's nearly the end of the year! Yay! But now that I've been at uni for nearly 2 years of my life, I value holidays more than ever! lol.. I know people say that holidays get boring after a while. But NO! I refuse to believe that and I'm so gonna cherish every day of my holidays. Because I know when it's over, I'm so gonna miss it.

Anyway, while I was at my 2nd exam.. I kinda finished earlier and started thingking about my blog in the exam.Ermm.... not a very good idea lol! But anyway, I thought of writing about the funny things I notice about exams. xD stupid and so not important but yah.. Since I thought about it, so here it is. xD

Funny things I noticed during exam:

1) Before the exams start, everyone asks: "Are you ready?" And everyone would answer: "No."

But we still ask each other anyway even though we know what the answer is gonna be xD

2) During one of the exams, one of the supervisors (which are usually pensioners) is an old lady who was wearing a baby pink dress, with a pink cardigan, and pink shoes. There were also 2 bags at the front, one was black and the other pink. I'm assuming she owns the pink bag xD It was so funny to look at the perfect colour coding, especially when she was holding the GPAS forms which were pinkish in colour xD

3) For exams I usually choose a spot on the very left of the lecture hall (unless I forgot to). Why? Because I have a monoglass. That is because my reading glasses (Yes, reading glasses for old ppl) got no lens on the left side. This is because my right eye is plus, therefore I need the reading glasses for my right eye only but not the left. So by sitting on the very left side, I hoped that people can't see the missing left lens. xD The supervisors at the front can see still see it though.. Booh..

And that's all, just really glad I finished exams :)

Good job for all of us! Enjoy the holidays folks!

This is the background picture of my laptop
that's supposed to keep me motivated during exams study :D

sometimes I wonder

2010-11-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

if i'm meant to do this course

: '{

The Miracle Oils

2010-11-11T17:20:00.005+08:00

Haven't post stuff for a while because of exams. But thought I'd like to share my recent discovery!

What are they?

Extra Virgin Olive Oil

and
The Body Shop Monoi Miracle Oil

I bought the Body Shop oil a couple of months back, and have been very satisfied with the results.

I have very dry hair and I always need to put some hair oil to keep it smooth. I used to use Garnier and this salon brand (I think it was called JD?) but they both kinda aggravate my neck eczema. The Body Shop oil claims that it can be used for body and hair. So I thought if I put it on my hair, it wouldn't be so bad for my neck because it is formulated for body as well. And well, now I'm pretty happy with it It gives shine to my hair and doubles up as moisturiser! :)

Extra Virgin Olive Oil... Well, my mum already told me ages ago, but I was like hmmmm *skeptical* because EVO Oil is used for cooking lol! But then after an extensive search on the web, EVO Oil is as good as Extra Virgin Coconut Oil (which is part of the Monoi Miracle Oil). Apparently it has been used by women all around the world since the olden days. It also contains Vitamin E and antioxidants. And so, I tried it on my dry patches, and it works perfectly. Didn't make it go itchy, and the dry patches improve significantly the next day, unlike normal lotions or creams that I usually put.

So for those with dry skin, definitely try these oils :)

Cinderella

2010-11-01T16:27:00.002+08:00

Such a beautfiful song :)

If I was a dad, I'd sing this in my daughter's wedding xD

Hmm.... if only there's a mommy's version LOL

Steven Curtis Chapman - Cinderella

:(

2010-10-30T09:18:00.002+08:00

Gone Fishing

2010-10-28T14:38:00.001+08:00

Won't be posting stuff for a while (until I finish the exams) unless it's an urgent thing xD

Why is the weight of my troubles so heavy?

2010-10-24T21:34:00.011+08:00

I learned something very interesting today :)

And guess what! While I was looking for a picture to illustrate what I'm about to tell, I clicked on the website, and coincidently the picture was from a blog that talks about the exact same story I was about to tell! xD

Perfect right? But I guess I'll try to tell it with my own words xD

So guys, look at the picture below of a hand holding a glass of water. How heavy do you think is the glass plus the water? 100g? 200g? 400g?

Well, it doesn't really matter how heavy it is. It's probably not that heavy anyway. Imagine you holding the cup of water. It's not heavy right? Especially if you start drinking the water, it's pretty refreshing isn't it?

But what if you hold on to that glass for 15 minutes? Hm, still okay.

What if you hold it for half an hour? Tired and aching hand!

What if you hold it for the whole day?? I think my hand would be paralysed by then!

The point of this analogy is that, the glass of water is still the same weight, but the longer you hold on to it, the heavier it is!

The same goes with our troubles. By troubles, I mean things like stress, worries, anxious thoughts, negative thoughts, and so many other things that may burden our life. The longer you hold on to it, the heavier it becomes. Whereas if we allow ourselves to put down the water, it wouldn't be so bad. We can then hold it and deal with the problem when we've recovered from the tiredness.

This story really made me realize how true that is. And I hope that it helps you guys as well.

From my own experience, I used to be so very self conscious about my looks when I was younger. I used to worry all the time about what people think. Then I had eczema, and that just made it worse. Because everyday would be a burden to walk out there with an ugly skin! But after a while, I learned to put down my self consciousness. I tried to think of other stuff other that how I look. Because at the end of the day, looks are not the most important thing in your life! So I'm pretty thankful that I got the eczema. Because I learned to put down the burdens of negative body image, instead of letting it run around my mind, getting heavier and heavier.

And these days, I have a lot of stress in my mind. Not just eczema. But listening to this analogy this morning, really help me to put down my stress, step back, and slowly resolve the problem instead of just stressing!

For those doing exams: Good luck guys! And don't stress too much. Study well instead :)

For those who aren't doing exams but are having troubles in your mind, learn to put it down for a moment and don't let it dominate your thoughts. :)

Inspired by Pdt Didik Tridjatmiko's sermon

My Favourite Inspirational Speech

2010-10-22T23:44:00.003+08:00

Wear Sunscreen

By Mary Schmich of the Chicago Tribune

Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '98: Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blind side you at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.

Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

No more cloud in sight! PART 2

2010-10-19T21:36:00.005+08:00

Continuation from Part 1..

In late 2009. I started noticing that my sight had become cloudy, especially in bright light. I searched up the net for a picture that would describe what it was like most accurately, I found this:

Some parts were clear but the center of my sight was very blurry and cloudy.

It felt like my contact lens were dirty but even after I changed to a new one, it was still cloudy and blurred. I started to search up in the net and was kinda convinced that it was cataracts. I started worrying even more when I couldn't see what was the number of the bus I usually catch. I could only tell whether it was 504 or 940 when it's realllyyyy close. So I just stopped any bus and get on it because it would be embarrassing if I didn't get on the bus I stopped lol. I can go to uni both ways anyway.

I searched up wikipedia and other websites and it said that using steroid based creams relate to developing cataracts. And that's when I immediately suspect that my eye problem was because of my eczema cream.
I went to an optometrist and she said "No, no it's not cataracts! You're still too young! It's just astigmatism!" She gave me some trial astigmatism contact lenses but I found them not helping at all! I then tried to ignore the problem and continue with uni and life.

Well into 2010, I really had difficulties with my eyes, the cloud just got worse. During labs I couldn't measure the transparent water or other transparent fluids in measuring cylinders because the light in labs are bright. Using pipettes were a nuisance and I sometimes embarrassingly need to ask the person next to me to check if it was the right dosage. I couldn't copy down answers in bright light. And in the pharmacy, I couldn't read the instructions behind the medicine boxes, making it hard to give quick answers to customers. One of the pharmacist also taught me how to dispense medications but I couldn't really see the computer screen, so I proceeded very slow. It was so embarrassing.

Basically, the cataract was TROUBLESOME!

One day, I told myself: that's it! I'm gonna need to get it checked! So Shawn accompanied me to an optometrist in Karawara. The optometrist there confirmed that it was cataracts and it was a rare sort. It's not located on the surface of my lens, but instead in the middle of the lens. Therefore, simple laser slicing of the top part is not possible and he referred me to an ophthalmologist. Before that, I partly suspected hat it was cataracts but I partly hoped that it wasn't. I went home crying on that day because the later option was wrong.

My grandma had a cataract removal surgery with Dr. Ian Constable form Lions Eye Institute. Therefore my mum brought me there too. I was pretty scared about it because I had never gone under the knife before!
The surgery was early in the morning at 7 am.

The anesthetist was very friendly! He asked me what course I do at uni and I told him I do pharmacy. I also told him that I was missing a lab session on that day. So he started telling me all the names and functions of the drugs that he put into the canula that was injected on my left hand. After all was done he said "See, you didn't miss out on learning stuff today!" and I just laughed xD

My bed was rolled a short distance to the operating theater. It was like in movies! I saw the ceiling lights rushed past over my head as the bed moved.

This is a diagram of the type
of artificial lens inserted
to my right eye.

The operation was amazingly fast. I fell asleep and then I kinda woke up a bit towards the end. I saw the blurry Dr Constable and I don't know if I imagined it or not, I saw his hand holding a lens. Then everything went black and I can feel something pushed from the right side of my eye. I think it hurt a tiny bit, but not really. Then I felt someone stripping off a large sticker off my face (it felt like someones waxing my face lol). Then someone wipe an alcohol like (probably antiseptic) liquid on my face with a tissue. Then that's it!
I was rolled back out and woke up feeling refreshed lol.

Crazy right. I had a shield covering the eye for a couple of days and then it got taken off and everything was CLEAR. Like crazy. I even got headaches from it.

So yah. :) I'm now (as a friend's brother said) a bionic eyed girl.
Even thought it was pretty sad I got cataracts from the cream that was suppose to help me with eczema, I'm pretty thankful cos at least now I have better sight. Also, the artificial eye will NEVER get cataracts anymore the doctor said. And eventually if someone lives long enough, they will get cataracts apparently. So i got an early surgery hehe..

THE END

PS: Careful for those using eczema creams not to use it near your eyes!!!!!!!!

CLEAN!

2010-10-18T16:21:00.023+08:00

Hey guys! Guess what! I just cleaned Shawn's bedroom LOL

well at least the desk part. Because it was crazily messy and DUSTY!!

*HA-CHOOOOOO~!!!*

Should have taken a before and after picture but didnt think of it xD

Originally I came over to his house to study together. But yah, ended up cleaning because it was unbearably dusty and messy --

So anyway, pretty proud of what we've accomplished LOL

So yah, hope everyone's been well, and I'll try to post more stuff up more often :)

And the cataract post number 2 is coming up as well, just haven't got the mood to finish it off, but will do soon :)

And please pray for the F.O.C.U.S (Fellowship of Overseas Christian Uni Students) group at Curtin because they are currently having some troubles.

Thanks guys :)

Random thought: I also feel like eating this Indonesian dish: Mpek-Mpek. Which is a delicious characteristic fish cake coated in crispy batter and egg in the middle, served a slightly spicy light soy sauce. Yum :)

Loving it: Just The Way You Are :)

2010-10-10T19:01:00.005+08:00

"Cos you're amazing just the way you are..."

Such beautiful lyrics!

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

Alpacas are cute :)

2010-10-06T22:04:00.001+08:00

A Cold Day

2010-10-05T21:34:00.004+08:00

Today I went to uni for a 2 hours tute at 2pm. When the tute finished, I quickly rushed to the bus station to catch the earliest bus to Canning Bridge. I needed to arrive at work in 1 hour so missing that bus wouldn't be an option.

As I got on to the bus and then got off at Canning Bridge, I realised that it was quite cold and windy even though I was wearing my long work pants. I rushed down the stairs and tap my smartrider on to the machine.
I looked up and there it was. 39 mins wait. I was like omg. I'm gonna be late!

Then the bottom part of the screen said something along the lines "We had a distraction in one of the train stations therefore there will be a delay in the train times. We apologise for the inconvenience." I decided to call the pharmacy telling them that I'm gonna be late for work, but then the train arrived a couple of minutes later. Thank God. I was 20 minutes late however.

Work went quite fast, and learned several new stuff. Shawn picked me up and he told me about an incident that apparently happened in one of the train stations. One or two (I'm not sure) people suicided. No wonder there was the delay. I was so surprised and so sad to hear that. And got reminded of an article I read this morning by a pharmacist who wrote on his blog about how depression is on an increase in this generation. I also learned a few antidepressant names in the pharmacy and nearly every week handed out at least one or two prescriptions. Often, the person receiving the medication doesn't look like they are depressed. They often looked like their lives are just normal. It made me wonder why.

Maybe it's because our generation needs to do so much more multitasking and have a much more hectic lifestyle than our parents to keep up with the modern world. Maybe it's because of the exaggerated fashion and self image demands that we face everyday. The pressures to be beautiful and to be physically flawless. To confide in looks over inner beauty. And all these other stress triggers. And there so many other reasons that I don't know but it is there and it is very close to us.Who knows, I might get depressed one day. Because I for one often think about my looks and would find so many flaws in them.

So going back to the incident, it wasn't a very happy day for a lot of us in Perth today. But just remember, that these things can happen anytime and anywhere. That's why it's the job of each and every one of us to take care of the people around us and make sure that they can have a chance to get help before doing anything dangerous. Especially the people close to us. Take care!

Why is shopping so addictive?

2010-10-05T12:55:00.018+08:00

I hate to say it, but I love shopping.
Thing is, I don't like to spend money for the vain and not really necessary shopping. I'd rather save it for more necessary stuff such as saving up for a car, a house, etc, etc. And if there are any abundances left, it would be better off given to people who really need it to stay alive, rather than shopping for more clothes .

Sigh.

Also, my wardrobe is so full already! But I love shopping for new stuff!! T_T Especially after I've gone through blogs or fashion magazines, or saw something that someone wears or have which I like. Booh..

Help!

On another note, I'm probably not gonna write any meaningful stuff for the next couple of days xD
Haven't been in the mood. Been pretty dodgy mood these days. It's because I haven't studied AT ALL during the week break. And I'm pretty behind. Also, work keeps calling me beacause they need people. I guess it's good because I got a pay rise which means I can spend more! ^^ (NO! I hope I don't spend more on unnecessary stuff)

Sigh

2010-10-04T14:58:00.001+08:00

Sigh.. how I hate when my laziness kick in and mum starts to nag T.T

1 kg and NORIT!

2010-10-03T14:22:00.006+08:00

Been crazy tired and sore after the body pump.
Now eating healthy and less than before :D (I was eating humungously huge amounts of food before xD).
Took 1 NORIT tablet (activated charcoal) cos my tummy was so bloated and gassy (a.k.a burp&farts ewwwwww) and it got better afterwards yay!
And guess what ! 1 KG gone! muahahahahahahha......
Okay now gonna clean the house for extra work out lol

PHAT!

2010-10-01T13:44:00.003+08:00

Yesterday = ROYAL SHOW :D
It was so funnn!!!! Went with DumDum, my sister, my sister's bf, my sister's bf's lil bro. My mum, my grandma and bro was there too but they didn't stay till the fireworks!
So, after a day of fun rides, tiring walks, petting different kinds of animals, we went home and I straight away went to sleep.
The next morning I checked the pictures we took and I was :O OMG.
My tummy is SO BBBBIGGGHHH zzzzzz
so, I decided that I'm gonna try to eat healthier and lose some weight lol.
This morning I went to gym session called Body Pump and it was crazy tiring. Lifted up to 3.75 kg on left and right side of the weight. It was crazy. Now I'm just at uni trying to dwld all my ilectures and probably will stay till 4ish, cos i got work at 5. Phew.
So good luck to me! My target is to lose... hmm..... maybeeeeeeeee 1 kg? haha.. okay I have no idea cos I've never done diets before. Maybe 5 kg. But gonna eat healthy and exercise more for 1 month. So 30 days of that. Trial version. If it works then I'll continue longer ;)

Face painting! :D

2010-09-28T15:03:00.009+08:00

In the food bazaar GROGKI on saturday, me and my sister did face painting. Thought that it was gonna be a disaster since we only had 1 night of practise on Shawn's, my sister's bf, and my sis bf's brother's face. In the end it turned out okay :D. So I just wanna share some of the face paitning pictures I did in the bazaar! :D
My sister did heaps of cool stuff like Totoro and Harry Potter but I didn't upload it. Check fb, there would be more xD.

Bart Simpson! :D

Pikachu and 4 leaf clover, butterfly by Yvonne


Pink Dolphin! This lil girl is so easy to face paint. She just sit there nice and quitely, unlike most kids do :)

The popular and thankfully easy to draw dolphin

Naruto!! :D

Bunny!

Teddybear!

My favourite: the fish xD Yvonne did the awesome Doraemon on Shawn's face.

A simple flower :)

Thanks everyone who became the face painting models.

It was really fun! :D

hehehe

2010-09-28T08:59:00.021+08:00

Note : Hong Kong, Taiwan.. Could it be Kelvin and Cass? The two lucky ppl on a trip to Hong Kong and Taiwan? XD

On another note, I'm gonna give you a lil update :)

After several days of busy busy planning, practising face painting, and running the food bazaar GROGKI, me and DumDum were flat out tired LOL. So yesterday he came over to my house and we just chilled lol. First we watched sum youtube vids while eating breakfast. After a while I got reminded of this childhood game that I used to play when i was tiny! After googling it, the name of the game is Pocahontas 1.0.

So we downloaded it and played the adventure for about 1 hour. I can't believe it's so fast because when I was small it took me weeks to finish the adventure! :S I blame it on the gamer DumDum :P hehehhehe..


Pocahontas 1.0

Then we looked through my old files in the computer and found some The Sims pictures I kept. It contains the houses that I've made etc etc. I was like "Look look!! so kool right??!!!!". Sadly very proud LOL.

Some of the houses I made :D

In the evening we walked Shaki to Piney Lakes, where we went pass this house which always had a flawless, green lush lawn. I remembered there is always an old man with a lawn mower, taking care of the garden, with a dog put on a leash, tied on a garden fork standing upright on the grass. However, today was different :(

It wasn't as green, lush, neat, and flawless anymore. It's got dry patches and the sides weren't perfectly straight, the hedges were not sharply squared, etc.. And 2 little girls were riding on bikes outside the house, supervised by their mum. Maybe the old man sold the house? Or might have passed on? I'm not sure. It's just kinda sad cos everytime I walked around that area, the lush lawn would be so eye catching, and now it's slowly fading away.

I told Shawn, I get so sad when things change, especially if it's a really good or fond thing. But we live in a rapidly changing world, so it's not good to be someone who can't move with time. At least I'll keep the memory of the lawn in my mind :) Just wished I had taken a photo of it though..

The lawn looked a bit like this, but smoother in texture.

Friends?

2010-09-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

Are there such things as good friends and bad friends?
Friends can't meet up to your expectations all the time. All you got to do is accept them for who they are.
It's pretty much impossible be a perfect best friend. So what defines a bad friend?
I heard a quote that says something like: Friends are not necessarily those people who are always there for you. But even after moments apart, nothing changes between the two of you.
I thought I agreed with that, but then is it really?
Because a friend complained to me once that as a friend you need to be there for them all the time.
Otherwise you'd be classified as a bad friend.
What if your life circumstances changes, and you can't be there as much anymore? You still care for them, but not sure if they still care for you after you sacrificed their time for another person. Would that make one a bad friend?

No more cloud in sight! PART I

2010-09-20T17:26:00.001+08:00

As some of you know, I had a cataract surgery done about 3 months ago. "A cataract?! At your age?? I thought it's only for old people..." That would be the response I get from friends, aunties/uncles, even optometrists and doctors..How did it happen? When did you realise you had it? Is it clear now?? Was the operation scary?? Well.. here goes the story..

Starting around late Year 11 in 2007, I started to have this lil tiny bit of itchy, dry patch of skin on my left eyelid. I didn't know what it was, and I thought it was just simply because of the dry weather. I put on my moisturiser as usual but it never did got away. I would have days when my double eyelid would be retarted cos of this dry patch lol. One day, a friend at school told me that she thinks that it's eczema! I was like.. what's eczema? She told me about it and that would be the first time I know about the condition. Afterwards I just totally forgot about it.

2008. TEE. The stressful year 12. I started having intensely itchy skin on the insides of my elbows and behind my knees, then the neck and under my eyes. When my GP told me that it's eczema, I got reminded of what my friend told me the previous year! For those who are not familiar with it:

"Eczema is a term used to describe itchy, red inflammation of the skin with oozing of fluid and crusting, which doctors also describe as atopic dermatitis. People who have eczema usually have a family history of asthma, hay fever and atopic dermatitis (eczema). Some people who have eczema also have asthma or hay fever." http://www.dermcoll.asn.au/public/a-z_of_skin-eczema.asp

I got prescribed some creams which are called "corticosteroids" which are, well, steroid based. I did read the precautions etc on the package, and was being careful of not putting too much of the cream on my skin. However, the creams only worked for a few while and then my eczema got worse. The GP referred me to the dermatologist and I went to the one in Applecross.

What can I say... The visit was :S . pretty much I went in, then the dermatologist said: "So, you have eczema is it? (He found out from the sheet I filled in at the reception) Can I have a look?" Then I said, " Yes, it's here and here and here and a little bit here". He straight away went to me, roll up my pants sleeves, roll up the back of my shirt and checks the eczema. I was a bit :S Also, the consulation was probably only about 20 minutes? Including the time he spends on writing the prescriptions, which seems longer than the information that he gave me about the condition or the drug.

He prescribed me the low dosage cream (I found out from the Australian Pharmaceutical Formulary book that a Pharmacy student/Pharmacist must buy. Pretty handy huh ;) ). As before, it worked for a while, then it didn't work. And worst, it made really deep wrinkles and extra extra dry skin under my eyes! I pretty much looked like a granny! He then gave me a stronger one that in the end works, but he never told me that I am not to put it under my eyes or anywhere near my eyes! I also want to mention that the eczema was gone, but the deep deep wrinkles did not.

I went to another dermatologist in Fremantle on recommendation from 2 friends. He was so much better, explained everything thoroughly, and told me that I am NOT to put those creams under my eyes, and even labeled the tubes as to which one is okay for the face and which one for the body.

2010. University, I'm much better at handling my eczema. Know when to put my creams and when to just continue moisturising it. But guess what started happening on my eyes... Cataracts.

(to be continued) sorry it's long xD It is a long story afterall..

Shocking story. Must read!

2010-09-20T13:23:00.008+08:00

A certain rich businessman had a beautiful daughter, who fell in love with a guy who was a cleaner. When the girl's father came to know about their love, he did not like it at all, and so began to protest about it.

Now it happened that the two lovers decided to leave their homes for a happy future.

The girl's father started searching for the two lovers but could not find them.

At last, he accepted their love and asked them to come back home in a local newspaper. Her father said "If you both come back I will allow you to marry the guy you love, I accept that you loved each other truly."

So in this way, their love won and they returned home.

The couple went to town to shop for the wedding dress. He was dressed in white shirt that day. While he was crossing the road to the other side to get some drinks for his wife, a car came and hit him and he died on the spot The girl lost her senses. It was only after sometime that she recovered from her shocked. The funeral and cremation was the very next day because he had died horribly.

Two nights later, the girl's mother had a dream in which she saw an old lady. The old lady asked her mother to wash the blood stains of the guy from her daughter's dress as soon as possible. But her mother ignored the dream.

The next night her father had the same dream, he also ignored it.

Then when the girl had the same dream the next night, she woke up in fear and told her mother about the dream. Her mother asked her to wash the clothes which have blood stains immediately.

She washed the stains but some remained. Next night she again had the same dream she again washed the stains but some still remained.

Next night she again had the same dream and this time the old lady gave her a last warning to wash the blood stain, or else something terrible will happen. This time the girl tried her best to wash the stains, and the clothes nearly tore, but some stains still remained.

She was very tired.

In the late evening the same day while she was alone at home, someone knocked @ the door. When she opened the door she saw the same old lady of her dream standing at her door. She got very scared and fainted.

The old lady woke her up... and gave her a blue box, which shocked the girl. She asked "What is this...?" The old lady replied...

"Omo Washing powder ... it will remove all stubborn stains!!!"..

Don't start swearing at me ... I'm also hunting for the idiot who mailed this to me! (hanna LOL)

2/3!

2010-09-13T09:33:00.006+08:00

Just finished my 2nd exam today. :) I think I would pass. Yay! :D
1 left now.. the most hardcore out of all of em!!! :|
Currently addicted to the new (and old) 2NE1 songs :D esp Clap Your Hands! They're so cool! ^^
Tired, near overdose caffeine concentration in bloodstream.
And did I tell you? Got my fb pwd changed by Mr. DumDum so can't access them until the last exam xD
Now: Studying next exam: Pharmaceutical Biology. lalala~
Gluck everyone!!!! :) :)

2NE1

"Go Away"

Album: To Anyone

PS: A post about my experiences with cataracts under progress. :)

Just finding the right time when I'd have the mood to finish it off!
Also, sorry for the cut up random pieces of writing.. Brain kinda shutting off after the 8am exam lol

My dream exist in the world! :O

2010-09-10T13:09:00.006+08:00

When I was small (and even now), I have a fascination on all kinds of animals (except SNAKES >.<), but specifically i loved marine animals! :)

I wanted to be a shamu whale trainer after seeing a show in orlando when I was 7 years old. Now I know that the proper name for it is the "killer whale". It's kinda scary now that I think about it.. hmm... Then I considered being a marine biologist. However, I think all those occupations are just too daring for me so I decided to hang around Pharmcy xD

Oh! And I LOVEEEEE manatees (other names: dugongs, seacows, mermaids)!!!!! they are the cutest animal in the wholeee world!

As a child, I also dreamed of having a bedroom surrounded with glass walls and having a huge aquarium surrounding it. The walls and the ceilings and the floors would be a window to the colorful view of the marine aquarium.
Today, I was browsing the news.com.au website and found out that there's an underwater resort in the Maldives Rangali Islands somewhere in the Indian Ocean. And it's not just under an aquarium, it's under the sea!!! :0 ah... maybe one day... xD ("one night in the luxury villa will set you back $1950")


A whale trainer on Shamu


Manatees (Dugong)

Sister, Mum, Bro, excited me and Manatee at the back!

Maldives Rangali Islands Resort

Two whale trainers standing on the Shamus

KevJumba on Amazing race??

2010-09-09T14:36:00.002+08:00

when me alone helping is not enough,

2010-09-09T14:07:00.005+08:00

there will be other people along the way who will also help out. :)

That's what I realise today.
So for anyone out there who've been wanting to help someone in need, but you're not sure if you can, just do it! Cos even though it may not be much, along the way more people would help, and in the end those little helps may become a significant one.

How i wish!

2010-09-07T20:50:00.004+08:00

I wish I can put this hamster (which I decided to name "Rowny") somewhere on the right side of the blog but don't know how :'(

Oh well... It's so cute!! :D

Watch him run on his wheel, drink water, and eat the food you feed him by clicking your mouse. Click the center of the wheel to make him get back on it.

For fellow IKEA lovers...

2010-09-07T10:55:00.005+08:00

...who also like extra creativity :]

this is definitely worth having a look at!

IKEA HACKER

Seventeen Body Peace Treaty

2010-09-06T22:50:00.023+08:00

This pledge was started by Seventeen magazine to raise awareness on body image issues facing everyone these days. It's been signed by heaps of celebrities and everyday people around the world. Saw this last year and thought that I could share it with everyone. I hope that it could be as eye opening to you as it did to me! :) It goes a lil like this:

\/ Remember that the sun will still rise tomorrow even if I had one too many slices of pizza or an extra scoop of ice cream tonight.
\/ Never blame my body for the bad day I'm having.
\/ Stop joining in when my friends compare and trash their own bodies.
\/ Never allow a dirty look from someone else to influence how I feel about my appearance.
\/ Quit judging a person solely by how his or her body looks — even if it seems harmless — because I'd never want anyone to do that to me.
\/ Notice all the amazing things my body is doing for me every moment I walk, talk, think, breathe...
\/ Quiet that negative little voice in my head when it starts to say mean things about my body that I'd never tolerate anyone else saying about me.
\/ Remind myself that what you see isn't always what you get on TV and in ads — it takes a lot of airbrushing, dieting, money, and work to look like that.
\/ Remember that even the girl who I'd swap bodies with in a minute has something about her looks that she hates.
\/ Respect my body by feeding it well, working up a sweat when it needs it, and knowing when to give it a break.
\/ Realize that the mirror can reflect only what's on the surface of me, not who I am inside.
\/ Know that I'm already beautiful just the way I am.

Check their facebook page here or..
You can straight away sign the pledge here! :)

Happy Father's Day 2010!

2010-09-05T19:05:00.010+08:00

Dear:

a.k.a Papah

Just wanted to say: Happy Father's Day :)

Sorry that I'm not always as good

And obedient as you wanted me to.

And sorry that we're not very close.

But it's okay. Your still the best dad in

the whole world to me!

(And to yvonne and billy too i'm sure)

Thanks for taking care of us all these times.

Even though we never said it..

We're actually very thankful! :)

And I'll try to study hard to thank you

(actions means more than words after all)

God bless you Pah! :)

Love, Monica

Wonder if he'll ever read this,

Cos I probably wouldn't say it face to face.

Too shy. lol. lalala

Oh well, it's the thought that counts! :)

Blog = communication during msn deprivation?

2010-09-05T00:19:00.016+08:00

Hello :)

I haven't been on msn much these days. Partly because my laptop literally dies if I use too much applications all at once (ilecture, fb, blog, files, etc). Also, I haven't gone out much at all cos of uni stuff and for being broke sigh...

So, I just realised that blogging is actually a good temporary way to connect with everyone! :) Getting to know whats been up in everyones lives and sharing whats happening in my life (even though its not much hehe).

It's not as time consuming as msn, and not as distracting as fb. It's also pretty fun! So, perfect. :)

Will probably blog heaps in the next few days

(except maybe during the days when I actually have exams :S)

To fellow writers in this lil blogging world:

Happy blogging! :)

PS: How gorgeous do these purple desserts look! (got nothing to do with the post but it looks nice lalala...)

Fridays = vic park (except last week)

2010-09-03T22:53:00.012+08:00

So today was a good day. Got to study FULLY for a couple of hours in Curtin library. Saw a couple of pharmacy students in level 5/6. Then got picked up by Mr DumDum hehe..
We've decided that fridays = eating out after uni. Cos that would be the only time both of us are available during the week (sadly), especially during this exams week.

Last week we were gonna go Vic Park (close from Curtin so it's convenient). But SOMEHOW, SOMEONE thought that vic park = leederville. :P
So we arrived in leederville and i was like ermm.. why is it so far.... pretty sure this is not vic park... --
Oh well, at least we got to eat at Jus Burger :D :D
Instead of the student (budget *LOL*) area of Vic Park, we ended up eating at where the working (loaded) people eat out in Leederville..
Sigh.. Oh well.. it was def worth it! :D
I don't mind having that mistake... xD
Hope you all are having a good week as well :)
And study hard for everyone who's having mid sems!!

LIST TO DO IN MID SEM HOLIDAYS:
- gilmore girls marathon
- watch all unwatched movies
- bake the cookies
- do more juicing :D
- swimming
- catch up with those I haven't seen for agggessss
- ...(to be added later) ...

Gilmore Girls Cast

Big Girls Don't Cry

2010-09-02T22:59:00.012+08:00

An old song that I used to love and just got reminded of it.. :)

Not saying that big girls shouldn't cry though.. because I for one cries a lot *LOL*

The singer, Fergie wrote it when she was trying to break out of the drugs and parties scene she was trapped in. She was telling herself to be a big girl and move on from things that was holding her life down. That would mean going to the rehab and break up the relationship she had with her boyfriend at the time, because he was heavily associated with drugs. It hurts, but she gotta still do it. And she became a succesful singer after that! Sounds so fairytale-like doesn't it?

This reminds us of our life sometimes. It really sucks to have to move on from things that we had found comfort and happiness in. We often hesitate from moving on even though we know that it's for the best. Cry as many litres as you like but move forward and keep a positive eye on it. I'm sure that the best is yet to come! :D

"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving" - Albert Einstein

Hope you like the song :)

the song meaning in detail

A blog that made me XD today

2010-09-02T13:38:00.006+08:00

Can't explain what it's like so check it out urself xD

The dullest blog in the world

its (Y)!

got it from widi's blog :)

The :( of studying pharmacy

2010-09-01T13:10:00.014+08:00

Becoming a pharmacist. It seems like a good idea! I get to help people, the job is not that tiring, all you need to lift are medicine boxes and popping the pills xD. The pay is okay. You learn heaps about health conditions and how to manage them (can be handy for yourself or ur family):D. And it seems like a relaxing job.

However, with these comes a great responsibility. Basically you're in charge of the medications you give out to people. If you made a mistake, best case scenario is that you get complained at, worst case scenario is that you may cause other people harm or even worse, it might kill them.

As I progress through the course, I get why they make it so hard. We might not necessarily use ALL the stuff that we learn in the course when working as, for example, a community pharmacist. However, the load of work you get in the course would teach you to commit a lot of things into memory, train you to think fast and accurately perform tasks.

Even though I'm quite appreciative of all that, I'm kinda struggling studying pharmacy here :S I failed a unit in first year.. Miraculously pass all my other units after that.. But I'm still struggling and working my ass off to pass all my units!
I haven't even mention the amount of social time I've cut off from my life T.T

The stuff are hard.. At least they're quite interesting. But then ~90% is about memorising stuff, which means that I have to regularly study them so that it sticks in my mind. The thing is, it's kinda hard to study.
I wonder how a lot of people, especially other pharmacy students can do it. They can just spend a full 5 hours or more of study, productively! Whereas me, only sometimes I can do that. Usually it'd be like 1 hour productive study, and then 4 hours break, 3 hours half study half daydreaming, and so on..

1 hour. productive. study.

Sigh..

Sometimes I wish I could study better.......

Anyway, GO STUDY MONICA!!

PS: the totoro sandwich is so cute!

im back?

2010-02-17T22:19:00.013+08:00

WARNING: THIS POST IS LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

so........... as the title said.. im back.... with a question mark.. haha..
rite now....... i dont tink i shud be writing a blog.. since im scared that i may reveallll sum probs that my friend is having... but another friend told me a few minutes ago.. to write again.. and i think i will, just to pour out all my thoughtsss so that i can be there for my friend.. and keep listening to everything that she has to say, by getting rid of my own thoughts for once and for all...

So before writing this post.. i had a quick flick through my own blog.. and i was reminded of "those days" when my eczema was really bad....
Im happy to say.. its better now :)
like much better.. than before.. i even forget i hav it sumtimes!! except during sum days when it wud come bak.. but now that i know how to treat it and take care of it.. it doesnt last long..and i feel normal again? xD But i do still remind myself from time to time about that feeling when i had it bad.. coz it just helps to keep myself grounded and to keep being humble.. coz u know what.. no matter how good u are.. nobodys perfectt and its good to keep that in mind.. so that u dont accidentally or intentionally step on other ppl just coz u think ure so good.

So anyway... these past few monthsss.. well probably the past 2 months i guess....
my friend had been caught in a reallyy reallyy deepp complicated problem.. i knew about it all along.. and hav always been positive minded and hopeful that it will get better with time..
but these past few days, its actually gotten worse, to the point that nothing i say, nothing i do can make my friend happy...
and that really made me sad.. and made me think about another friend.. who is in a hospital, treated for depression.
And to be honest, I dont want this friend of mine to go through that too. I dont tink she will, but i cant help getting scared of this happening.

and today........ after i got home from work... i got a message from her... and after thatt i just cried.. for like a few minutes... and i remember thingking to myself.. omg.. maybe im affectedd now.. and i told myselff.. thats itt i gotta get away.. so i went on msn.. talked to sum friends...

I talked to this one friend that i really trust.. And i really wanted to pour out all my thoughts.. just to get my head clearer.. becuz who can help a friend in need, when u urself is having problems rite?
So i did.. and i nearly said things that may reveal the problem to this friend that i trust... but i remembered not to say the actual problem becuz he doesnt know about it.. so i asked him:
D u know about the problem?
and then he goes: No, I dont. And dont tell me.

So, for sum reason.. probably me in my sensitive mode.. take that as him thingking that im a bad friend.. who just goes on blabbing about other ppls problems to random ppl.. And that really hurt me. So nvm about telling my feelings rite...
So i just went quiet for a while.. was planning to ignore him for everrr.. i deleted him off my favourites list. But then.. i told him,, "so u think im a bad friend huh??"
and he goes: No
but i was thingking in my mind.. "whatever man.. nvm.. u dont understand"
so i ignored him... and went off to talk to other ppl..

And then just at the right time.. another friend of mine.. talked to me.. and we both are having problems with uni enrollment... and she said: this suxx..
and i went: "yeah i know.. sighh.. and life is not that good atm.. and likee i SOHHH dont wanna think about these pharmacy units rite now.. >.< but i hav to..pooh!" and then she asked me: "why is life not good atm?" and then i told her.. "coz my friend is having probss and i dont know what to do.." and she gave me sum advice.. she told me to hang in there.. keep being there for her..even though what i say may not help at all.. but being there is good already.. and that really encouraged me.. like.. A LOT! i really thanked her for that.... becuz after pouring all my worries.. it just made me feel so much better and ready to go bak.. listening :) and thennn.. during all these time.. my friend.. the one i trust and the one that made me think im a bad friend,, and the one that hurt me for a second.. talked on msn.. he said: "back. and you now have my undivided attention" *but i was busy listening to my friend and writing my blog at the same time, and talking to several other people so i ignored him.. sorryyyyy ahahha.. " and then he goes: ok fine. don't use it. *and that just made me LAUGH ahahahahah... but i still ignored him.. sorryyyy againnnnn if ure reading thiss* and then after a while.. he nudged me.. i didnt realise coz i disable the thing.. but the next time i checked there were like 3 nudges.. and that made me smilee xD so, sorry for ignoring uu but u made me laugh.. xD ahahhahahaha and i will talk to u soon.. probably after writing this blog xD And then........ i told my friend thats having probs.. that im writing a blog now.. and i let her read everything that ive written so far.. its probably boring since its so long.. xD but i just hope that it helps to let her know how much i care.. and to reassure her, that all her friends do care and we're here for uuu... so even though we may not help.. just know that we're here for u kayy!!! :) And then.. theres another friend.. who wanted a special mention :P He's called DUMDUM and he likes to say Merry Christmas :p ahahaha... is that a good enuf mention? xD And yeah.. so in overall.. i dont know what to say anymore.. but defintely feeling better after writing this.. and i dont tink this post will help anyone.. xD but if it does then good :) if it doesnt... umm at least it helped me.. xD and as an ending note.. i guess..... if ure out there having probsss..... im sure that ure not alone.. ( this sounds like what i said in previous posts :S ) and even though u dont know the future, and even though the future can be pretty scary since we dont know..... just... stay positive.. know thatttt no matter how much shit is happenin in ur life.. know also that theres HEAPSSS MOREEE blesssings in ur life! :)
and there wud be those momentss when nothing can make u feel happyy but at least knowwww that u hav ur friends there...
its like this quote i copied off sumwhere:
"Friends are like stars, sumtimes u cant see them, but they're always there"

Hehe... :D

OH: and HOW CUTEEE IS THIS PICTUREE!!!! credits to Evermore Photography.. :)

!!!!

2009-10-23T20:35:00.006+08:00

u kno what???
who cares about eczema and how it looks!!
imma do watever i want whenever i want however ways i choose to!
screw hiding and limiting myself just coz of how i look on the day! >:)

maybe it's not as bad as I think?

2009-10-21T22:11:00.006+08:00

Hmm.. yeah...
Maybe it really wasn't as bad as I thought. lol.
I thought of it now coz everyone was really nice to me when I got back from work..
My dad talked to me about whats happenin in his life. which is like WOW coz he never usually do. Then when I got home Mum was reallyyy nice.. Like, I was so pissed at her for scolding me in the morning.. but tonite, it was completely diff..
So maybe, it was just one of those moments when things somehow didn't work in everyone's life.. But maybe it wasn't that bad.
Maybe it's just coz I was in a worried state of mind that everything seems so rank..

Maybe, maybe..

But you know what, if you have a seemingly huge ass problem atm, just step back a bit and look at it from a diff perspective.. I'm sure it's not as complicated and as big as u think it is. And remember, God will never give you anything you can't handle ;)

this song is awthum :)

2009-10-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

a very materialistic, sad song but yeah.. i LOVE the beat :)

the blues are colouring my world now :(

2009-10-19T21:45:00.006+08:00

Here comes a loooongggg complicatedd random thought of the day sighhh:

So, the exams week is coming up.
I had one exam this morning (which i think i screwed up over), a mock practical exam tomorrow morning and another calculation exam on friday. And the real final exams are just a mere 2 weeks away.
That's ok right.. but the problem is, I'm in one of those moments when I just can't do anything.
I literally don't have any motivation to move my ass off and do something productive.
Like, I've been sitting here for the past 2 hours, doing nothing but msn and like random fbing, listening to music and just absolutely nothing productive. lol.
I guess this is allrite if you're up to date with everything like ilectures etc etc.. But i am sooo far away from being updated.
And procrastination in general suxxx :X hahah.. coz the one thing that I hate the most is wasting the precious limited 24 hours away, but sadly I never get away from it.. LOL aghh..

Adding to the rapidly approaching exam and procrastinating mood problems, I also have some crazily ridiculous family problems, that shouldn't have happened in the first place but it happened anyway. And this is the last thing you want during exams week.. because during that time like the people u will probably meet most often is ur family. And you do need them coz they're like the people you should be able to fall back on when ure stressed out and one of the most, if not the most important foundation in ur life.

Oh well~~
just gotta pick myself up now.. and just get on with it..

the song im luphin

2009-09-10T23:00:00.003+08:00

Woah. I'm not alone!!

2009-09-09T22:12:00.001+08:00

So, I haven't written a blog entry for agesss!!!!
I feel like doing it now so here I am.. :D

As many of you know (or don't know), I have a skin condition called Eczema. What's eczema? It's "a noncontagious inflammation of the skin, characterized chiefly by redness, itching, and the outbreak of lesions that may discharge serous matter and become encrusted and scaly".
Huh???? lollssss...

Basicly, my skin gets inflammed, red and itchy and then it becomes really dry and scaly. Sometimes during the worst times my skin would be really red it looks like I've been punched or sumtin.
Scary huh? Yes I think so.
It's pretty crappy having to live with it lol.
And I didn't know about it till like Year 11!
Never had it before and suddenly it just came up after the exams started. :S (probably coz of stress)
Sux.. lol
According to the dermatologist it's inherited from my mum who has asthma. Coz asthma, eczema, and hayfever lies on the same strand of DNA so if you've got one of these conditions there's a chance of you having the others.

So yeah, felt pretty depressed and very very inconfident for the past 3 years of my life. Like, visits to the GP and dermatologists didn't help much and I basically learned more from my own experiences.

Quite recently though, I've realised that I'm actually not the only one with this annoying thing!
I was bored one day and I typed in eczema on youtube. From there I found this dude in Canada who also got eczema, and apparently he's had it all his life. Check it out:
http://www.youtube.com/user/myscarletguitar#play/uploads/3/M_joEfXEiME
or
http://www.youtube.com/user/myscarletguitar#play/all/uploads-all/2/BkeFerLrfQ8

and this girl who also hav it:
http://myeyelideczema.wordpress.com/
(Warning: pretty scary pictures LOL but that's what happened to me too)

So yeahhhhhhh.... If anyone out there have eczema too, dw ure not alone :)

the simple gift of an egg

2008-12-05T23:04:00.001+09:00

Last last week.. i forgot when exactly, my church youth had a closing nite for the year..
It was amazing to think how the year had gone sooo quickly..
it's crazy how much u miss out.. especially because of exams and all the hecticness dat goes with it.. hahahahh...

Anyway... at the end of the nite.. we had the gift swapping thingo..
so every1 hu attend brought a gift wrapped in newspaper..
oh wait... except 1 person hu ddnt bring anythin and quickly grabbed a newspaper he found on the stage hahaahah...
*not gonna say the name xD*

We all stood in a circle and the presents got passed around.
Round and round the gifts go... some are lighter than u thought it wud be,
some heavy despite its "not-that-big" size

Finalllyyyy after a seemingly long rounds... we each got our presents...
*including the person hu ddnt bring any.. I think anyway lol*

I opened the newspaper... and... guess wat i got! an EGG!
Not just an ordinary egg.. it's called an eggling.. and when u crack the shell, water it, and leave it under the sun, it will grow into a STRAWBERRY PLANT!!!!
:D
:D

how KOOL is dat???!!

Anyway.. before the gift swapping and everything.. we got a message from the preacher..
He asked all of us to pass the one MOst PRECIOUS thing u have rite now to the person next to u..
I passed my wallet..
*even though it was empty hahahah*
And then he asked evry1: Do you like the gift that u received?
Most said yes.. Some said no.. including me..
lol actually i wud LUPH to receive the gift.. *i was saying it just for the fun of it lol*
Different people have diff opinions on why they don't like it..
I said that I couldn't use the shoe coz it doesn't fit me..

He then went on saying: Isn't this like what we usually do?
We often get presents from someone..
And you never think that maybe this person gave the absolute BEST thing he or she had to give to you..
It may not be useful to you or you might not like it or you may think "I wish I had gotten something else"..
But think about the person's feeling.. How would she or he feels?
What do you do if someone give you the BEST BEST thing that he or she has...
Would you reject it?
Or would you keep it?
It was short and simple.. but i never thought about this... xD

Made me feel even MORE guilltier coz it reminds me of wat i did lol..
Once, I got this naruto classbook from my friend.. she knew that i LUPHED naruto..
However, i gave it to my other friend coz i tot I wouldn't use it and i cbb to ask ppl to write lol... *so stupid of me*
I didn't tell her that i "gave it away".
Anyway the worst thing is when one day, this other friend asked my friend (the one hu gave the classbook to me) to fill in her new classbook...
OMG.... i feel so bad lol......... sorryyy >.< Anyway... in this case.. I LUPH my present.. so I have nothing to worry about hahahahah...

the one I got was like this but pink with strawberry picture :)

CRAZYYYY!!!!!!!!

2008-12-04T09:24:00.002+09:00

OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE MY MUM LET ME GO COLDPLAY!!! :D:D:D:D:D
soooo happppyyyy....

I've always wanted to go coldplay since year 10!!
I remembered that the concert was d only 1 in perth.. and it was on the 07/07/06..
I wanted to buy the ticket but it was finished the second i opened ticketek..
had to hunt for sum in ebay.. but ddnt get any...

So.. I ended up watching the LIVE version on TV hahahahh.. crappiehhh but I was happy just to see them on TV... Even up untill now.. If I see them on TV i will stop watever im doing and watch it!!!!!!!

FINALLYYYY my dream cum true :D thanks to mum...
Now i hav to work my ass off and earn enuf money to pay bak.. xD
BUT THX MUMMMMMM :D *CRY* LOL xDXDXD

hey i remembered somthing!

2008-11-27T23:06:00.001+09:00

u know wat... I had a blog before this actually.. like when i was in yr 9 or sumtin.. forgot what address was though.. meh...

today:
woke up at 10!! yay.. earlier than yesterday..
ddnt go myaree *AGAIN* coz i decided to apply everything online...
I applied so many... and a couple of hours later, HJ called. lol...
interview nxt week.. out of all the numerous places ive applied, HJ was the
one who called first....
my first job was in HJ.. I guess i'm going back to the start xD

OH! and i got a mobile!! My first mobile!! :D *well second actually.. the first one was given to my sis*
sooo happppyyyyyy... ppl must be thingking: dat's just sad lol... it's a pretty crappy fone too.. but hu cares!!!!!!!!! ^^

and then later on that afternoon........ i made some ratatouille! made it in cooking class once... it was nice.. But for sum reason the one i made just then taste crap lol... I thought it was gonna be ok to use cucumber instead of eggplant but it is SO NOT ok.... it taste disgusting now.. hav to finish it somehow.. >.< tomorrow.. jen's exhibition.. hav to wear smart casual.. I was panicking over what to wear... wrecked my bro's room.. *the mirror was in his room*..clothes everywhere...wikipedia "smart casual", ask ppl...... and FINALLY found what i can wear tmrw phew... when i was checking my email.... i saw that i got an email from UWA. It was titled: Your application for a dentistry/medicine interview at UWA. I was like :O ...read... and i was soooooo surprisedd coz it said that my UMat score was enuf to get an interview!!! I was like NOWAY!!!! I got excited... and then i kept on reading.... and the letter said: "Applicants will only be able to access the booking once we have proof that you have an actual TER of at least 96.00"

Oh.

rite.

And there goes my dream................zzz...

PS: Apparently if ure turning 40 tommorow, u can get a $400 voucher from CUE!
(info from CUE insider a.k.a kei lol)

first day of the blog's life

2008-11-26T21:14:00.000+09:00

so it goes like dis:

i set the alarm 9am last nite but ddnt woke up till 11.
i kno its impossible to wake up early these days but i still try anyway lol..

was planning to apply jobs in every store there is in myaree.. but i cbb xD
instead went to my frend's house to make CUPCAKES..

ohhhhh went to coles first to get the stuff..
saw CHONG in maccas working but i just waved
*sorry.. u were busy!!!!*

anyway... the cupcakes. It's called Chocolate Cheesecake Cupcakes. Sounds good?
Itwas. the butter couldnt mix properly coz we ddnt melt it properly lol.. but anyway it turned out ok.. they look really nice but the taste err..... i dun tink we put enuf sugar lol.. but nevertheless it was nice :)

watched scary movie 1
scared dat this will remind me of the real the ring movie lol..
.....couldnt sleep for weeks after watching dat movie.....
but turns out that scary movie was SO funnyyyy.. xD
some parts were seriously lame it's funny lol

then watched dis korean movie called HOLY DADDY..
FUNNY and sad.... T_T the dad dieddd noooooooo >.<

it's about this guy's dad hu was in prison.. but he died.. he then asked the angel if he could stay to see his family.. and then... just watch it!! lol

but seriously u shud watch it.. the guy's pretty hot :D
and it was really good and unlike most other movies, it was original.
so yeahh... watch it!!!! :)

after reading ppl's blogs...........

2008-11-26T20:35:00.002+09:00

i cant believe i made this....
like seriously i told myself once dat i would neva eva be bothered to make a blog
and then after reading ppls blogs i tot dis looks FUNN :D